~ thirty ~

putting aside today because it is already
half of d day, i have 4 more days til
my wedding day..

i still cant believe m actually getting married..
but m glad that i finally found love, even at
the age of 30.. the age whre most of my
friends, acquaintance, peers, colleagues and
even my mother & aunties have had at least
one child..

but i've never looked at my life tat way.. i've
never felt self-pity of not being married at the
age of 29, and when i first entered 30.. maybe
because i have come to accept that i will never
be married becoz m juz too scared of marriage..

but when the big W knocks on my door, and
opening it i found ajoy standing outside it, i am
pleasantly suprised to find myself welcoming
the big W into my life..

30..31..32.. age really is juz a number. i know
many girls out there who are approaching tis age,
or are already in this category feels the pressure
from family members & friends..

imho, we should have faith there is someone out
there for us. maybe tat guys hasnt knocked on yr
door yet. sometimes it is because we still have a lot
to experience in our life so tat when he finally arrives,
we will appreciate his presence n let him in..

maybe he did knocked before but it wasnt the right time
for u to open it yet.. to me, dont rush yrself to pull him
into yr life. if he is really into u, he'll wait at the door until
you invite him in..

eh, nape jadi love guru punyer session pulak ni.. hihi..

then again, life's a gamble kan.. some of wat i say may
not at all be applicable to everyone.. some marriage
works out juz fine even tho they didnt even know each
other from the beginning.. some marriage pulak, couple
da bertahun2 last fall apart pulak.. so yeah, life's a gamble.
juz be sure of wat u want, and wat u wanna do.
and then deal with watever comes next la kan..

crossing my fingers now, i juz hope my future marriage
will be d one i hope it will be, juz like any other women
out there does.. *cross fingers*

til then, take care.. :)