~not well ~

smlm actually before g house boutique arma, i mkn ckit sgt ard 11-ish kut.. pastu terus lupa nk mkn.. smpi boutique arma dlm kul 4 lebih.. and yet, before tat takde pulak rasa lapar, so i totally forgot to eat.. and then after fitting n some discussions, kul 5 lebih da grk, meluncur laju towards s.alam despite all the jam sana sini, friday kan smlm..

every friday at 6:15pm ada aerobic class, aerobic masala.. meaning aerobics with bollywood incluence. mmg best2 sgt this class n can burn a lot of calories! so despite all the jam from kl, ajoy managed to send me to the gym ard 6:10pm kut.. juzzz in time la kira.. cepat2 tukar baju.. 

oh, ada citer masa tukar baju tu.. hihi.. tempat tukar baju tu mcm dressing room yg pki curtain jer.. so there's 2 dressing 'rooms' kat gym tu.. i knw there's somebody in d 1st one coz d curtain gerak2.. so i pun masuk la d 2nd one kan.. i've already put on my gym top.. pastu masa nk pki my gym pants, tiba2 d girl next door to selak d curtain of my dressing 'room'.. and then she was like 'aaaaaa!!!'.. eh dia pulak yg jerit, bukan i yg jerit.. hahahaha.. i think she wanted to get out but wasnt sure whc one is her curtain tuk diselak kut.. hahaha.. as for me, i ok jer.. maybe because i was so used to half naked n naked ladies at fitness first walking around the dressing room, so asalkan i was wearing panties tak kisah ar kan..

anyways, back to the gym.. i think about half way kut mmg da pancit sgt2 n sakit dada n rasa mcm nk muntah.. mula2 cam pelik nape rasa camni ni.. after thinking hard, baru teringat rupanyer sejak lunch time, terlupa nk mkn.. but then i juz kept on going but with very low impact.. part yg kena pusing2 i didnt pusing2 coz takut muntah.. so i sort of created simple steps so that my tempo is the same as the instructors.. yg kelakar tu, org2 lain yg tak larat bole pulak ikut my steps.. hehehehe.. 

n then bila da abis tu mmg da x larat sgt2.. betul2 rasa tak sedap mulut, tak sedap perut n all.. luckily last nite i didnt vomit at all.. 

so today, i did loads of housework ~ basuh baju, sidai baju, vacuum, sapu, mop, cuci bathroom, etc. coz last week i went to tganu for 5 days 4 nites.. n then smlm pulak bz giler, so hari ni la baru bole cuci satu umah kan.. now rasa tak sedap bdn balik.. sighhhh...

tebuan!!!!

those who knows me well mesti tau that i mmg fobia dgn binatang2 terbang ni, including butterflies.. yeah i know, nama blog butterfly tp takut butterflies.. hahaha.. i love butterflies, tp suka tgk la coz they're beautiful.. tp if they come and fly around me mmg jd takut.. lalat n nyamuk je kut yg i tak takut.. yg lain, no matter how small, as long as they're flying m scared. dunno y.

so td lepas buang smph, a tebuan came flying into my living room from my opened sliding door.. konon2 nk ada ventilation dlm umah tu, tats y bukak sliding door.. skali ada pulak tetamu tak diundang sibuk nk dtg umah org.. da la tgh sorang2.. and then when the tebuan da fly out, i quickly closed d sliding door and emailed my husband. dia pki bb (blackberry) so senang la nak access email, ni kira cara kitaorg jimat phone bill la.. hihihi.. and lepas ajoy baca kan, he called me right away pastu duk gelak non stop.. nk tau apa i email dia?

"SAYANGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

td kan, i g buang smph, pastu kan, i balik kan, ada tebuan tgh terbang2 kat tv!!!! sbb i mmg biar je sliding door bukak for ventilation.. pastu i da gelabah la kan.. pastu kan, dia terbang2 kat sofa, kat dining table (i was at the sink time tu).. i da pegang aerosol da syg.. tiba dia terbang betul2 dpn muka i! i jerit kuat sgt!!!!!! takut!!!!!
sbb i takut sgt, my whole body sort of frozed.. tak gerak pun except for my mouth n vocal cord.. uwaaaa.. pastu dia terbang balik ke area tv.. then baru i spray d aerosol.. i spray kat dpn i cam ala2 buat pagar, syg.. i spray kiri ke kanan pjg2 dlm 4 line.. konon2 pagar la tu.. bongok kan.. hahahahaha.. pastu dia terbang2 kat curtain, and then bila dia kuar jer kan, i terus lari tutup sliding door.. uwaaaaa..

mesti u tgh gelakkan i kan.. :("

~ fitting @ arma ~

today, ajoy and i went for fitting at arma's.. mula2 mmg cam nervous giler.. ye la, i takut sgt my dress didnt turn out like how i imagined it.. but when i saw d dress my heart dropped.. cantik gilerrrssss!!!! 

another thing yg buat i nervous la sgt2 is i takut giler tak muat d dress! coz when arma measured me like 2 mths ago kan, time tu kan tgh gumukkkkkk... so arma mmg sengaja nk buat dress tu kecik dr measurement so tat i kuruskan bdn.. hahahahah.. 

so when my mum zipped d dress up, jantung ni tak leh nk ckp la berdebarnyer.. takut sgt my mum ckp alamak, tak leh zip la.. hahahaha.. haru kan kalau jd gitu.. ada seminggu je tinggal ni.. hihihihi.. tp alhamdulillah, d dress fits me perfectly.. arma pun happy sgt2.. dia tak sangka i bole kurus smpi camtu.. and then arma pakaikan tudung and veil.. d dressing room tu takde mirror.. so apa2 yg my mum n arma ckp i mmg tak nmpk apa2.. i dont even know wat they were pointing at.. ye la, fitting kan, so kena la point out apa yg tak kena.. 

actually i came to arma's hse boutique pakai dress, da siap pakai kain dlm and girdle da, konon2 nnti senang la nk pki baju kawin tu.. pastu masa pki dress tu, arma cam tak puas hati, kenapa lain mcm je rupa dress ni.. and i couldnt see anything kan.. so i hv no idea apa yg dia cam pelik tu.. rupanyer my kain dlm.. getah kain dlm tu cam longgar, so against baju yg ketat tu mmg nmpk pelik la sgt2 kan.. hahahahaha..

so lepas da kuarkan kain dlm tu.. d dress looked so much better.. pastu kitaorg pun kuar.. sbnrnyer segan nk kuar coz time tu arma pun tgh consult dgn anne (celebrity msia - host kut).. so cam segan la ada celebrity kat situ pastu kita cam nk gedik2 pun cam potong kan.. hahaha.. but then, i was like lantak la.. kalau tak caner nk tgk baju ni, dah cermin mmg kat luar.. hehe..

and then bila i kuar.. siggghhhhhh... cantiknya baju ni!!!! and m so glad i fit in it! yg lg best tu, ada part2 yg longgar lg tu.. so he had to take it in lg.. and then when i turned to d side, i was feeling very grateful for having buttocks! it made d dress looked so much better.. hehe.. perasantan la pulakkkk.. hihi.. sekali sekala kan..
cuba tgk gmbr bwh ni.. nmpk tak part2 yg longgar tu?

*tgk kat my arms.. tis pic is cropped dr gmbr bwh ni..

*ni actual pic yg ajoy amik.. dr jauh pun nmpk tak fit kan bhgn lengan tu.. yeayyy!!

then before balik arma tny, nk g mana lepas ni.. i told him la nk g gym.. muka arma risau giler.. dia takut sgt nanti i got thinner than i am now.. hihihi.. he said jgn kurus sgt, nnti baju tak cantik.. :P but i know setakat seminggu mmg takkan jd kurus giler punyer.. dont worry arma ;)

goshhh cant wait for next week!!!!! *wink*

~ of satins and bows ~

in d midst of preparing my wedding, which is only like days away.. i am also looking for something for my brides maid's dress.. as i've mentioned before, my theme will be white & purple where i'll be in white and my family members will be in purple.. i forgot to mention tat my brides maid will also be in purple. i bought a long sleeve full length dress in purple for her. and to incorporate the white & purple theme, i've been searching for the right belt or sash to be worn on her dress.. 

i've searched for satin ribbons at ribbons shop in shah alam, tp they only hv a 1-inch ribbon in white. it's actually more to off-white.. takpe la tu kan.. m not tat particular.. but when i tried it on my black dress whc is d exact same design as the purple dress, tak cantik sungguh d white ribbon sbb kecik sgt.. i wanted a ribbon yg lebar dia about 2 1/2 inch to 3 inches.. but so far, of all the kedai ribbon/brg kawin i've been to, kalau ada pun 2 inches, and its not even white.. nk cari satin n hntr jahit mmg malas yg amat.. hehehe.. but i did found a solution in case i couldnt find wat i want using d 1-inch ribbon.. tp tu kira last resort la kan.. 

so today i went to kedai baju pengantin.. and then i saw the sash/belts tat pengantin selalu pki tu.. i went in, and asked if i can rent it.. d girl said dia kena tny owner dulu coz tak pernah org sewa belt tu jer.. hahahahhahahah... than i tried putting it on.. perfect!! gotta have tat one! tp kalau mahal sgt tak bole ler.. :P

i also took the time to browse wedding sashes and how to tie the sashes.. best sgt.. cantik2 semua.. plus, since we're talking bout brides maid's dresses here.. here are some of the brides maid's dresses & sashes i found that i like.. :) for now, i m still not sure nk buat cam no.1 or no.2..

cantik2 kan? there's a lottttt more.. tp tak larat nk upload semua.. yg bestnya site ni is u can choose the colour u want on a dress, ada yg u can change d colour of the sash.. best sgt.. click here if u wanna browse thru d dresses.. d downside is, d dresses semua sexy2 la kan.. but we can always find ways to wear it tul tak? ;)

~ wedding reception ~

so.. if u guys hv read my blog from d beginning than u'd knw tat i da nikah da dgn en ajoy.. but, kitaorg nikah gantung.. meaning kenduri tak buat lagi la kan..

we hv decided to have our reception early next month (april).. basically semua benda da ok da..

if you go back to my blog titled venue.. we havent decided where to have my reception yet kan.. we have now decided to have at prince hotel, kl.. why? food quality, good service, convenience for family members are among the reasons we've chosen prince..

my reception will be lain ckit.. d food itself pun lain.. it will be a chinese + malay fusion.. because ajoy and i are both from chinese and malay heritage.. and because we were both born in UK (united kingdom, bukan ulu kelang tau hihihi), so our wedding pun cam ala2 english gak..

our theme will be white wedding, with a splash of light purple/lavender.. i will be wearing an A-line wedding gown.. mcm i pernah ckp before, wedding attire & pelamin & hall decor will be by arma wedding couture.. dress yg i nk pki ni arma, my mum and i sama2 fikirkan design.. i ni senang jer, very simple.. sbb ada 2 dress arma yg tuk sewa yg i suka.. yg 1st suka bhgn atas, yg 2nd suka bhgn bwh.. so combine dua2 yg i suka, and tweek2 sikit, jadi la design my dress.. basically it will be lace & schiffon.. i sgt suka schiffon sbb nanti bila kita jln nmpk cam floating in the air gitu kan.. hihi.. fitting tuk baju ajoy and i will be tis week.. tak sabar nk tgk baju.. harap2 muat la.. kalau tak buat ponek yo diet n exercise segala.. hehehe..

pastu masa kat prince, we will be marching in with our favourite love song.. hari tu masa burn lagu tu tuk prince, ajoy pasang kuat2, pergghhh feel giler.. terus terbayang kitaorg masuk dewan dgn lagu tu.. harap2 everything will go smoothly.. hihi..

as for the entertainment part.. masa semua jemputan tgh mkn, artist dr bdn kesenian tentera darat (bktd) will perform some songs selected by ajoy and i.. 

ok, i need to explain ckit psl prince ni.. unfortunately, i tak boleh jemput semua org sbb ballroom prince ni kecik jer.. actually leh muat dlm 350 pax jer kalau letak high table skali.. tp nasib baik i buat chinese malay fusion kan, so dpt gak la muatkan 400 pax.. and because it is a sit down dinner, so kena rsvp la kan.. kang tiba2 tgk byk lak tempat kosong.. tak best ar.. tul tak.. :)

off to the gym!

my last blog was feb 26??? hihihi.. lamanyer tak update!

nk kata bz, takde la bz sgt.. tapi, bz la jugak.. hihi..

it has been almost a month since my last update kan...

so since last month, i hv registered myself with a local

women only gym at sec 7, s.alam.. mmg no males.. best sgt..

actually in year 2005 or 2006, mmg i pegi gym ni.. i followed 

their aerobics classes religiously.. mmg bole kurus.. n healthy..

in 2007 i had to work at kl.. so i stopped d sec 7 gym and
joined fitness first (ff).. ff ni yg bestnya equipment mmg byk,
tat is, if u're into working out with equipment la.. but not me.. i
have a slight ADD syndrome.. cepat bosan is 1 of d symptoms..
so to do equipment ni mmg sgt2 bosan! hihi.. aerobics is
my type of exercise.. fun fun fun! unfortunately, ff punyer
classes.. hmm.. ntahla.. i didnt enjoy la.. 

and now tat m back in s.alam, i re-registered myself at tat
gym.. instructors semua da tukar.. but, because my friend said
the classes are great, so i pun mcm ok jer la kan.. and she is right..

on mondays is aerobics biasa by kak orkid (yes, instructors 

pun ladies only, best kan?).. mmg best kak orkid ni.. i think
she's  about 50ish tp stamina dia superb and bdn pun firm..
kita yg about 20 yrs younger yg lembik sana sini.. malu! :P

on tuesdays & fridays is aero masala by kak farina..
haaa yg ni mmg best.. it is aerobics ala bollywood..
penat giler mcm nk mampus everytime abis class tp best sgt2!
bygkan u kinda dancing to fast beat hindustan songs, but u 

gotta do extra ckit for the workout.. dancing saje pun da
penat, apa lg kalau masukkan d workout factor..
baju confirm lencun.. hihihi..

on wednesdays is also my favourite class dr dulu, whc is line
dancing.. now tis class is not a favourite amongst other
patrons.. all d better for me, more room to prance
around hehe.. now da tukar instructor.. dulu malay, tis time
is a chinese lady.. kurussss je cikgu ni.. bontot kecik,
kaki cantik.. so watever she does nmpk lawa jer..
bkn mcm i yg bontot besar, kaki pun gemok ni..

mcm kelakar jer rupa, but blasah je la kan.. hahaha..
after line dancing pulak ada class aero latino by kak farina
jugak.. so mambo, salsa, semua tu ada la masuk skali.. :)
but aero latino ni mcm medium impact, so tak sepenat
aero masala.. tp ttp best coz i love latin dances.. ;)

on thursdays, saturdays & sundays mmg tak g gym..
well, they're close on sundays, open only until 5pm
on saturdays, and according to my friend, thursdays classes
tak best.. so i take her word n tak g la.. hehe..

kalau dulu, mmg everyday i go to the gym, except weekends.. 

many of my friends asked me tis ~ u da kurus da skang
nape nk g gym lg? well for one, i belum cukup kurus...
i still hv about 3kgs more to  lose.. secondly, even if
da kurus, tak semestinya we're toned.. i dont

want to be thinner tp lembik sana sini.. 

a month before, my tummy mmg cam lembik,
pdhal dulu my tummy was very taut.. and daging kat
bhgn blkg bdn pun dulu very taut, nk tarik pun susah..
sekarang tidak lagiiiiii... hahaha.. but, after going

to d gym for 3 weeks, ada la changes.. takde la selembik
dulu.. hihih..

ok la, cam byk lak membebel kan.. ;)

~ household chores = exercise = burning calories ~

yup... betul.. doing household chores can also 

burn calories.. contohnya..

1) carrying out trash, dusting, straightening up 

changing linen = 175 calories per hour

2) wash car, wash windows = 210 calories 

per hour

3) food shopping with or w/out trolley

= 161 calories per hour

4) ironing = 161 calories per hour

5) mopping = 245 calories per hour

6) scrubbing bathroom = 266 calories per hour

7) vacuuming = 245 calories per hour 

8) washing dishes, clearing dishes from table

(walking) = 175 calories per hour

9) watering plants = 175 calories per hour

10) playing with children (walk/run) = 

280 calories per hour

all these is assuming weight is 70kg.. so 

if we're lighter than tat, burn more calories kut?

tak sure sgt. tp yg pasti mmg burn la kan.. 

~ nearly 30 days ~

it has been nearly 30 days since my last blog..

remember i mentioned my weight was 52kg?

so after nearly a month of controlling my diet

and some exercises, i managed to lose only

2.5kg..

sighhhh sikitnyerrrrr.. rasa geram pun ada gak..

rasa sedih pun ada gak.. but then, a doctor told

me how much weight we lose is not important..

yg penting, nmpk kurus ke tak..

i guess d small amount of weight loss is also due

to the exercise.. becoz when we exercise, we'll

gain muscle weight.. tats y sometimes bila timbang

mcm tak lose byk tp kita tau la bdn kita kan, nmpk

beza dulu n skang byk..

as a result, i can now wear jeans size 26 (levi's)..

and baju2 i semua da tak sendat n da x nmpk cam

sarung nangka da.. perut pun da turun byk sgt..

doublechin pun da takde.. tp kalau pki tudung tu

biasa la nmpk ckit kan..

overall, in terms of inches loss, m sure i've lost

quite a lot.. tp masalahnyer b4 dieting program i ni,

i forgot to measure myself hehe..

~ effort ~

to start dieting or exercising takes a lot of effort..

we can tell ourselves we wanna do it, we wanna

diet, we wanna exercise, etc..

but if we dont get ourselves up and actually 

taking tat step, we'll never be able to do it..

it will always be something that we think 

we can do later..

and sometimes, by the time we get around it,

it is already too late..

so my trip to mr scale had a huge impact on me..

i felt like i got hit by a 52 feet lorry..

or a 52 tonne stone fell on top of me..

or i fell out of a 52 storey building..

y 52? tat's my weight.. 52kg..

giler depressing..

immediately, i have the willpower to start..

thing is, i used to watch wat i eat, and 

exercise regularly.. 

however, circumstances changed my

healty lifestyle.. so unfortunately,

my body expanded.. hihihi..

and bcoz of tat too, sometimes i 

became so depressed to d point of 

not wanting to go out because then tat

means i have to meet ppl.. and some of them 

will juz make my depression worst by

saying m pregnant, gemuk, bulat, etc..

and to find something tat fits or looks 

well on me is another problem..

it can be really depressing.

even if my husband says m not fat..

or tat i look fine. m still not happy..

thus, i have to lose weight. not for him..

but for myself..

so it has been 3 days.. and for the last

3 days, i managed to exercise everyday

targeting to burn minimum of

150kcal everyday.. on top of tat, i 

havent eaten anything fattening.. 

i hope i can lose at least 5kg..

but my goal is to lose maximum 7-8 kg..

wish me luck! :)

~ regret ~

i've broken a few hearts before..

but those men deserved it..

and i dont regret doing so becoz

they broke my heart too..

however, there is one heart that

i wish i didnt mess with.. tat i wish

i didnt break.. because she did

nothing to me.

i was never like tat before.

never ever thought i'd dive

myself into that shitty mess..

but i did. no matter how i dont wanna

think of it, i did it.

i cant believe i became such a bitch..

such a bitch tat other ppl's feelings

became unimportant because i was

such a selfish bitch for a prize

that is not at all worth it.

if only i could see tis coming

before everything started..

but, it did..

and i regretted everything about it..

i resented every second of tat

part of my past..

and if i could have a chance, i

would love to sincerely apologize

to you. for every pain n tears

i caused you. i'm not asking you

to forgive me.. i juz wished i could

apologize.. i'm so sorry S..