~ effort ~

to start dieting or exercising takes a lot of effort..

we can tell ourselves we wanna do it, we wanna

diet, we wanna exercise, etc..

but if we dont get ourselves up and actually 

taking tat step, we'll never be able to do it..

it will always be something that we think 

we can do later..

and sometimes, by the time we get around it,

it is already too late..

so my trip to mr scale had a huge impact on me..

i felt like i got hit by a 52 feet lorry..

or a 52 tonne stone fell on top of me..

or i fell out of a 52 storey building..

y 52? tat's my weight.. 52kg..

giler depressing..

immediately, i have the willpower to start..

thing is, i used to watch wat i eat, and 

exercise regularly.. 

however, circumstances changed my

healty lifestyle.. so unfortunately,

my body expanded.. hihihi..

and bcoz of tat too, sometimes i 

became so depressed to d point of 

not wanting to go out because then tat

means i have to meet ppl.. and some of them 

will juz make my depression worst by

saying m pregnant, gemuk, bulat, etc..

and to find something tat fits or looks 

well on me is another problem..

it can be really depressing.

even if my husband says m not fat..

or tat i look fine. m still not happy..

thus, i have to lose weight. not for him..

but for myself..

so it has been 3 days.. and for the last

3 days, i managed to exercise everyday

targeting to burn minimum of

150kcal everyday.. on top of tat, i 

havent eaten anything fattening.. 

i hope i can lose at least 5kg..

but my goal is to lose maximum 7-8 kg..

wish me luck! :)