~ lucky ~

"I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday"

- Jason Mraz

u know the song right? as ajoy puts it, it

really describes us.. :)

i really do feel lucky to be in love with

my bestfriend.. however, i opposed tis

idea at first because my previous

relationships with friends - good or

close didnt turn out well - obviously.. :P

and of course, i ended up losing the

friendship as well.. tat wud be d last

thing i want to happen to ajoy n i..

i guess tat was y i kinda blocked my

feelings and kept in denial tat i may

be on d same page as he is too.. bcoz

i sayang him too much to let anything

ruin our friendship.. bcoz i takut sgt

we wont work out like all my past

relationships..

but my instincts were too strong on

saying yes to ajoy, on giving chance to

ajoy, on telling me tat tis time it will

work out.. and usually, my instincts

win. n m glad, very glad i followed

my instincts..

and his instincts tat we really are

meant to be together made him not

lose hope on being with me.. m sure

he is also glad he didnt give up on me..

it is so great tat none of us was in the

'impressing another' mode when we

started being friends.. becoz, we were

juz friends.. no need to control apa2 ke,

no need to impress one another ke, no

need to think of how to be interesting ke,

coz we're friends.. we dont need all tat..

bcoz nobody nk ngorat anybody mula2..

and bcoz of tis, both of us knew each other,

inside n out, unpretentiously..

bcoz of tis also, i know how he is around his

friends, colleagues n family.. vice versa..

there was no such thing as personality

change when m not around him.. y wud thr

be, he is who he is then n now.. vice versa..

i know some guys do change personality

whenever their gf/fiance/wife is not around..

camner nak identify? put their spouse nxt to

them n see if they suddenly change.. tiba2 je

jd baik semacam hahahaha.. tis is because

perangai giler2 busuk2 buruk2 with friends

wasnt potrayed during d mengorat part..

becoz d intention is to mengorat.. tats y jd

mcm tu..

some might say it is kinda dangerous to hv

a relationship with yr best friend bcoz masing2

knows too much about each other.. some might

say it is better to hv relationship with yr best

friend because we know a lot about each other.

in my past cases, mmg not ok of coz.. but in our

case, it helped us a lot so far.. :)

we're still relatively very very new in relationship..

still a lot more to be discovered.. a lot more years

to come.. i juz hope that after 10 years, 20 years

down d road i can still say i'm lucky i'm in love

with my best friend.. :)