::sabar itu separuh drpd iman::

this entry will be a lil emo-ish.. it is pertaining to questions being bombarded to couples like me yg still belum dpt baby even tho da kawin setahun lebih.. some of my friends da kawin 4-8 years pun lum dpt baby.. some baru dpt baby after almost 2 years waiting.. it is just life.. babies dont just grow in yr tummy bila kita petik jari.. if having babies is as easy as planting plants in our garden, then there wont be couples yg tpaksa adopt children, yg havent been lucky even dah 10 thn kawin.. 

fyi peeps, having a baby is something both ajoy and i really2 want but it is just not happening for us yet.. ajoy wanted baby kalau bole since kawin lg.. have u ever watched giuliana & bill show? she said something brilliant the other day.. of all the things we can control in our lives, THIS (having a baby) is something we just cant control.. it will happen when it is the right time..

wat's sad to me is those who asks me are ALL muslims. wats dat gotta do with anything? it has everything to do with everything. take a moment to ponder wat i just said. we're muslims, we all know about qada' and qadar.. if Allah wills it for us, if Allah decides it is our time, then it is our time.. if it is not, it is not.. 

i am not like other ladies who thinks of having babies all the time.. like literally, all the time.. there are times when we just have fun n not think bout them.. we only think bout them when ppl asks us about it.. 

to me and my friends, it is utterly insensitive to ask about babies/pregnancy to married couples, especially especially and especially to couples who are already married for more than 6 mths and still not pregnant yet.. faux pas to the max.. to those yg belum kawin i can still understand if they ask me.. tp kalau byk kali mau aku lempang jugak la kan.. tp to those yg dah kawin n had it easy for example within 3 mths da pregnant, then u have NO idea how any of us feels and felt to be trying and trying but still no good news.. 

so to ask us questions tat we have no idea wat to answer because we cant control the outcome, we can control the mechanism of being pregnant, is just uncalled for.. m so sorry if i seem very emo today, maybe m just so tired of answering those questions.. and to think those questions came from muslims LAAGGGGIIII la rasa cam sedih sgt.. 

so let me say this again ~ ajoy and i wants to be pregnant as much as u want us to be. we too want badly to see how our babies wud look like as much as u do.. tat being said, i know how much our family members wants us to be pregnant too, more than any of u nosy ppl.. but unfortunately it is not happening for us yet.. to us, maybe ada hikmah disebalik semua ni.. maybe we need more time for each other, maybe Allah wants us to date lagi byk hehehe, maybe Allah has something else planned for us. i mean masyaAllah nobody knows la.. so just let us be okay.. pls.. *peace y'all*

on a happy note, i am so happy tat this month alone, i found out that 5 friends of mine are now 4-7 weeks pregnant!! so so happy for them! congrats hot mamas!!