:: Aina Sakina ::

:: to whom it may concern ::

2012-01-25T09:50:00.001+08:00

to whom it may concern,

all these while i kept quiet because nothing i say or do matter. when you ask, you only hear what you want to hear, not what i have to say. and whatever i do, is never enough for you. i kept quiet because i dont want to argue, i dont want to raise my voice, i dont want to be disrespectful and i dont want to sound condescending even when i am not.

but please.. please dont pretend to care when you actually dont.. please dont say you do it for love when you actually do it to save your face.. what was said in that message, that is not true.. you did all that so tat your name and face is not tarnished by me, by us.. because if it is for love, then i wont be treated like a convict.

i know i made a lot of mistakes. but if m punished every time i call or visit, and you expect me to put on a brave face and face whatever shit you throw at me every single time then i am sorry but i am not that person. i am not you. i can never be you.

u always ask why he cant just send me there and go do whatever he wants. i tell you now. he's so afraid of what you might do to me. even when he's around i get punished behind his back, he cant even imagine what'll happen if he's not around. i cant blame him.

i'm sorry but i'm just so tired of trying to fit in, trying to belong and trying to please you. it will never be enough. 32 years now, still not enough. somehow i kept making more and more mistakes.

truth is, he truly is my savior. if it wasnt for him, my life would have ended 2 years ago. you might not see it. but i've been emotionally tortured and abused ever since i can remember. u might think all ure doing is to bring me to the right path, but it made me go the other way even more. before i met him, every day brought me closer to the edge. and you might think your methods are pulling me in, but i think you can see now that it only pushed me further and further away until i cant find my way back to you. yeah i know what you're thinking now, there she goes trying to make herself look like a victim again. like u said the other day "whatever lah.."

oh yeah dont think i dont know about your scheming ways of trying to stop me and him from marrying once upon a time. i know. truth be told, as a devoted muslim, you should be more thankful that we grow stronger even with our financial problems, that we find ways to work things out, that we dont grow apart despite our problems unlike most couples. i want u to know that despite what you think of him, he is a good husband and i am grateful to be married to him.

i know you expect me to come crying begging you to take me back after that message. but, to me kalau org dah tak sayang nk buat apa terhegeh2 lagi. that message wasnt sent because of love, it was sent to let me know i have been disowned.

yes, i am happier now. am at peace. i found my place and myself again. never once thought of ending my life anymore.

sincerely,

p/s: dont worry, one fine day i'll repay you.. i havent forgotten.

::almost always::

2012-01-25T08:35:00.000+08:00

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:: still enjoying our dating life ::

2011-12-04T21:00:00.001+08:00

salam all.. lama tak update kan.. sorry, teramat bz.. (ada ke pembaca aku nih??? :P)

anyways.. i juz wanna share something that happened to me just recently.. ajoy n i are still not pregnant.. but, we dont fret about it.. we are instead taking our own sweet time and enjoying every waking moments together..

however, that changed briefly recently.. someone asked and remarked the usual about being childless to me. normally i wudnt be affected but somehow or rather i was, maybe because of her body language, intonation and the words she used. i had to gather all my will to not cry, not answer her back with bitter answers, and to brave the afternoon with a smile, and layan everyone else there except for her..

oh well the closed pipe didnt close for long, i cried when i left the place, letting out all my tears.. luckily i have great friends to console me and i was soon chirpy and happy again..

i just wanna state it out here loud and clear.. until we are blessed with pregnancy and a healthy baby, we WILL DEFINITELY NOT frown about not being pregnant, but instead WILL DEFINITELY ENJOY doing these activities becoz we are well aware that the moment we have a baby these activities would be quite difficult to do:

1) dating dating dating! berdua ya, bukan dgn anak2.. tat doesnt count as a date..

ok, i got some disclaimer to make before you guys with kids starts jumping and accusing me of stuff k.. i know some married couples do take d time to date.. good for you! i hope when we have babies/kids, we'll be like u as well..

2) watching movies.. at cinema, bukan rumah watching star movies or astro first..

disclaimer: we love watching movies at home too. it is just tat we knw some ppl who have kids who made it loud and clear to us tat they envy us for being able to watch movies at cinema becoz since they have kid(s), they have never stepped foot in a cinema.

3) having romantic dinners..

disclaimer: this can be done for married couples with kids too.. i dont know how they do it, but when i have kids, i wud sure wanna find out how.. hehe..

4) romantic getaways..

disclaimer: kalau ada babies tak jadi romantic dah la kan hehehe..

5) lounging at home just the two of us.. clothing is totally optional haha!

disclaimer: do u need one???? :P

6) sleep! yes we knw we have this luxury for now..

disclaimer: those with kids yg tido sama time dgn parents are VERY lucky! i hv no idea how my babies will be like, but watever pun, we'd better be enjoying watever we have now hehehe..

7) shop what ever we want for us.. coz we dont have to priorities 'the babies' yet kan..

disclaimer: again, do u need one??? bila ada babies confirm babies will be the priority over our blouse or pants or shoes! hehehe..

8) hang out at coffee shops, having quiet moments and read novels/magz/etc together2..

disclaimer: seriously u dont need a disclaimer for this kut..

9) work xtra hours n not worry about our babies or overtime fee for nursery..

disclaimer: kalau ada maid tu lain citer la kan hehehe..

10) getting to knw each other more and more.. improving our relationships.. improving our marriage lives..

disclaimer: this is actually for married couples who have been married for less than a year and already pregnant. i personally know many friends who do not really have the time to get used to married life, still have a lot to learn about their spouse tp tiba2 da pregnant.. this somehow results in a lot of altercations between spouses. as for us, we are still learning about each other.. n enjoying every moments of it..

what i need to point out here is there is NOTHING wrong with having babies early, as well as nothing wrong with being late in that department like me.. there are pros and cons in everything we go through in life.. it is how we manage them that counts..

all i wanna say is yes, we do want to be pregnant.. but, in the mean time we have stopped stressing about this as it got us no where, which is why we are taking our own sweet time..

everybody has their own rights to choose their own path in their lives, we do too.

HOWEVER, if you already have children and are wondering why we havent yet, choose your word wisely before blurting out a faux pas to us or any childless couples.. some of us are trying extremely hard, looking if they succeed every single month, some are taking it slow like us, and some do not want children for watever reasons that we have to respect. remember, you are nobody to judge anybody for the choice they have chosen in their lives. ok? :)

k la.. shud stop now.. bye.. :)

::boosting metabolism

2011-08-24T00:22:00.000+08:00

at my age, fat somehow becomes our pest.. they just never seem to wanna leave.. no matter what we do, they are still there.. degil nk mampus kalau kita org melayu ckp.. hahaha..

one of the reasons is our low metabolism.. what is metabolism? metabolism is a biochemical process that governs how quickly you turn calories into energy.. other than exercise and diet, we need to also look into what we are eating, n ensure those food will boost our metabolism.. so what food can help us boost our metabolism?

- start early with a smart breakfast that includes only fresh fruits

(cemana nk buat canie.. nasi lemak merata2!! murah lak tu! hahahahaha)

- eat often becoz tat will keep our metabolism pumping all day long.. and when we eat many small meals thru the day, we tend to eat less at one time, which will put less burden on our digestive system and let it work more efficiently..

(yg ni xde masalah, just tat bila tgh bz mana pikir small meals, snacking, etc.. esp kalau meetings back to back kan..)

- eat spicy food, if they're hot enough they'll kick your metabolism into high gear and u'll sweat!

(utk budak n9, takde masalah ni.. my gastric je yg susah..)

- snack smart on lean proteins like nuts/seeds..

(almond is the best..)

- chew your food 25x before swallowing..

(igt tak sunnah nabi kita kunyah 40x? kita ikut nabi kita lg bagus kan.. ^_^)

- eat metabolism boosting food:

Apples Avocado Nut milks

Celery Carrots Seed milks

Garlic Berries Asparagus

Lemons Oranges Cucumbers

Mangos Spinach Pineapple

Onions Turnips Grapefruit

Papaya Broccoli Cauliflower

Cabbage Tomatoes Raw Nuts & Seeds

Lettuce Zucchini Green, Leafy Veggies

and drink water all day long..

::july punya citer::

2011-08-02T08:52:00.001+08:00

*fuhhh fuhhhh tiup habuk kat lappie*

salam.. almost sebulan tak update blog.. so this entry is gonna be super long! hehehehe.. this is because the whole month of july, i was bz preparing for a big event organized by hdc, event tu kat kem tentera kat gambang.. since we're not using any event mgt co, hdc staffs were really going head on full force in making sure this event goes smoothly.. the result, kitaorg keje mcm org gila la.. hahahaha.. balik lambat.. smpi umah sambung buat keje lagi.. kesian family terabai sekejap..

*one of our billboards..

for the event, we had 90 exhibitor booths + 10 activity booths + 7 pavilion booths + 6 'booths' for autoshow.. so all in, ada 113 booths to manage!!! all these while in my previous jobs, i only hv to manage 1 booth in any exhibition.. so this is very2 new to me.. luckily i have a good exhibition unit manager & friends to help me out.. first of, we had to invite all halal industry players for booth participation.. so nk penuhkan tat 90 booths alone nk kena hantar hundreds of invitation, excluding the email blasts we did.. of course after the invitations we had to do follow ups after follow ups including entertaining soooo many calls everyday!!! sgt2 penat smpi husband call pun tak bole layan.. up to a point, i answered my handphone with 'hdc.. hello.." hahahahaha.. tu belum ckp pun asyik fumble je.. nk ckp bawak barang tersebut bawak bawang.. nk ckp sewa lori pun bole tersebut sori lewa.. byk lagi la, tak igt dah.. hahahahha.. kdg2 smpi umah, tukar baju pastu terus tertido..

*besar gila padang ni.. bygkan nk kena lari dari one end to another end.. :P

of course there are many glitches and obstacles in running an event like this.. somehow other ppl in the company thinks our job is simple.. apa susah nk dptkan exhibitors.. boy are they so wrong.. being blamed by the top bosses for not getting enough exhibitors like 1 mth before the event is one of my bitter memories, pdhal byk lagi masa.. those ppl yg panic tak tentu pasal tu yg buat keje ni lagi stressful.. they just dont understand that the companies we invited need to make several levels of decisions just like we do.. yg bestnya, everyday ada je company yg tarik diri, but not more than 1 hour mesti ada another company call nk join.. see bosses, dont need to panic la weyyyyy.. relax laaa.. our booths selling like hot cakes okayyy!! hehe..

preparations need to be done until the last day before we left for kuantan, which is on my birthday.. yeah, i havent even had the time to celebrate my own birthday disebabkan event ni.. but since my MIL's bday falls on the next day, mlm tu ada bday dinner with ajoy's family.. pastu balik rumah buat keje lagi.. then pack2 barang, and the next day off to kuantan..

even on the way to kuantan my hp doesnt stop ringing.. the best calls are the calls asking if there are any booths for them to participate.. sorry la, sudah penuh hehehe.. this time pegi kuantan naik bas yg hdc sewa.. bas travel n tour tu.. tp mak datok, bas ni sgt2 lembabbbb.. 5 jam 30min dr damansara nk smpi gambang tau!!! kalau dari klang ke kuantan pun tak patut take that long.. because of that my back sakit gila smpi hari ahad! bila da smpi gambang tu, tgk all the tents are up, mmg rasa so pumped up!

29th july (friday) is the registration day.. smpi midnite kitaorg kat situ.. penat sgt2!! our exhibition team's teamwork, hardwork & perseverance mmg terbaek!! tq so much korang!! because of them, i dont have to worry bout wats going on in the registration room.. i could run from one section of the exhibition to another.. tak kurus jugak tak tau la kan.. besar pdg bola tau! panas gila pulak tu kat sana.. plg tak best masa hari registration ni, kena marah dgn some exhibitors lg.. kena tengking to be exact.. layan me like m a pencacai pun ada.. to those ppl sorry la that i snapped back, sape suh tengking aku tak pasal2!!

*registration - very hardworking crew! tq so much!

*registration - part paling leceh, bg tag pemamer. askar da key in setiap nama we sent to them, so nk kena ikut betul2 yg exhibitors da register.. its not like other exhibitions yg dpt 5-10 tags per booth.. camtu senang je.. yg ni leceh yg amat.. nasib baik yg jaga part ni is marianna yg sgt2 strict! kudos to her.. kalau tak lagi kelam kabut!

30th july is the 1st day of the event.. ramai jugak org.. registration pun kitaorg kena bukak lg smpi 12 noon sbb ada jugak exhibitors yg tak register lg.. and then of course comes the time tuk melayan the exhibitor's needs.. nk meja extra la, nk kusi extra la, trip la, kipas tak function la, mcm2! tp seronok jugak.. mlm tu ada konsert by bdn kesenian tentera darat.. suara diaorg mmg sedap, tp malangnya tak tau sape yg pilih set list diaorg, semua lagu irama malaysia & joget! bosan ar! then they invited siti saerah.. man, that girl CANNOT sing!! suara artis BKTD jauh lagi sedap dr saerah tu.. so disappointing..

*gmbr gelap sbb sgt panas terik kat sana..

*the concert..

31st july, is the last day.. just cant wait for the event to be over.. today we had to collect feedback aka complaint form from the exhibitors.. i wud say 95% exhibitors complained about the facilities in the camp.. nk buat mcm mana, buat kat tempat org, itu yg diaorg provide, byk restrictions so terpaksa la terima sbb even us the urusetia pun complain about toilets & surau.. other than that, positive feedback about our team, quick responds on their requests/complaints (on electricity)! good job all! and also good response in creating more biz opportunities for the exhibitors.. kalau mcm ni, kalau buat kat tempat public and dlm bandar, responds mesti lagi lagi overwhelming!

oh yeah, this event was supposed to be launched by the PM.. tp agak expected la PM tak dtg bila kuar article kat paper kata on monday dia ada knee surgery kan.. agak disappointing esp when we are all doing this for him.. but after looking at the bigger pic, yg penting the event was a success.. :)

my personal result of this event - sakit tekak & hitam legam! tak tau la sempat nk putih balik ke tak utk raya ni! hahahahahahha!!

::kenapa ko gemok sgt ni aina???::

2011-07-09T19:26:00.002+08:00

for those who are utterly insensitive and absurdly clueless, i do have mirrors at home. so yes, i know i'm fat. i am not blind la. i have tonnes of clothes that i cannot fit anymore. in fact almost my whole closet i'd say. it just doesnt help when everytime i go somewhere where i'll meet old 'friends', they'll point it out. REPEATEDLY!!

like hello, are you intentionally trying to bring me down????? so insensitive!! fyi, i was really trying not to yell at you for your ignorance and insensitivity.

let me point out something here. maybe it will seep into your stupid brain somehow. i DID NOT INTENTIONALLY trying to make myself fat! for your information, i went through fertility treatments for months and unfortunately, i fall under the category of women who gains weight during this period. why? because of the fertility medicines la idiot! but of course since you guys are a bunch of bozos who know only about your own world, ignorant about everything else, tats y i dont even bother to tell you when you pointed out my fat body. buat penat je ckp dgn org bodo, bukan paham pun kan..

so no, aku bukan sengaja la nak gemok! sape yg insane yg sengaja nk naik badan dari XS/S to M/L???? pikir la bangang!! in fact, at one time, i became very depressed due to my sudden excessive weight gain. dont u think i'd feel anything with my condition now? fertility treatment has taken a huge toll on my body, and sadly it hasnt produce any result yet. so of course, i felt lagi lagi lagi la crushed.

plus those yg tanya "ko pregnant ke?" and when i answered no, comes the next common questions of "bila lagi?" or say "cepat la sikit dpt baby" or somewhere near there. please la, those statements n questions kan, how do u expect us to answer u hah? only Allah can betul tak..

now i have decided to put making babies aside for awhile, agreed and supported by my husband, and together we try to lose weight. insyaAllah when i'm ready to put my body through all those topsy turvy journey again, i will try again.

p/s: sorry for the uber emotional entry.

::blood type diet::

2011-07-07T00:28:00.001+08:00

i learnt about this from my friend's friend. she mentioned blood type diet and i immediately googled. to my awe, this does make a lot of sense! although some of the food i still cant consume due to the acidity level of my stomach, but most of the food in the chart i can definitely follow..

so what is blood type diet? it is to learn eating right for your blood type. different blood types (O, A, B, AB) has different sets of do's and don'ts food.. for more info, please try clicking this link. as my blood type is O, i will only share O info here ok.. hehehe.. so here goes..

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Blood Type Diet - Type O

Michael Lam, MD, MPH

Type Os thrive on intense physical exercise and animal protein. Unlike the other blood types, Type Os muscle tissue should be slightly on the acid side. Type Os can efficiently digest and metabolize meat because they tend to have high stomach-acid content. The success of the Type O Diet depends on the use of lean, chemical-free meats, poultry, and fish. Type Os don't find dairy products and grains quite as user friendly as do most of the other blood types.

The initial weight loss on the Type O Diet is by restricting consumption of grains, breads, legumes, and beans. The leading factor in weight gain for Type Os is the gluten found in wheat germ and whole wheat products, which interferes with insulin efficiency and slow down metabolic rate. Another factor that contribute to weight gain is certain beans and legumes (lentils and kidney beans) contain lectins that deposit in the muscle tissues making them less "charged" for physical activity. The third factor in Type O weight gain is that Type Os have a tendency to have low levels of thyroid hormone or unstable thyroid functions, which also cause metabolic problems. Therefore it is good to avoid food that inhibits thyroid hormone (cabbage, brussels sprouts, cauliflower, mustard green) but increase hormone production (kelp, seafood, iodized salt).

*brussel sprouts*

Several classes of vegetables can cause big problems for Type Os, such as the Brassica family (cabbage, cauliflower, etc.) can inhibit the thyroid function. Eat more vegetables that are high in Vitamin K, which helps the clotting factor which is weak in Type Os. The nightshade vegetables can cause lectin deposit in the tissue surrounding the joints.

Because of the high acidity stomach, Type Os should eat fruits of alkaline nature such as berries and plums.

Type Os should severely restrict the use of dairy products. Their system is not designed for the proper metabolism.

Characteristics of Type O - Best on High Protein Diet
Thrive on intense physical exercise and animal proteins Do not do well with dairy and grain products Hardy digestive tract The leading factor in weight gain for Type Os is the gluten found in wheat germ and whole wheat products. Type O have a tendency to have low levels of thyroid hormone and unstable thyroid functions, which cause metabolic problems and weight gain. Type O have high stomach-acid content, can digest meat easily.
	Comments	Most Beneficial	Food allowed	Food not allowed
Protein	The more stressful your job or demanding your exercise program, the higher the grade of protein you should eat	Beef, Lam, Mutton, Veal, Venison
	Type Os can efficiently digest and metabolize meats		Any meat except for those listed not allowed	Bacon, Ham, Goose, Pork
	Cold-water fish are excellent for Type Os. Many seafoods are also excellent sources of iodine, which regulates the thyroid function.	Cod, herring, Mackerel	Any fish or seafood except for those listed not allowed	Barracuda, Pickled herring, Catfish, Smoked salmon, Caviar, Octopus, Conch
Dairy	Type Os need to severely restrict the use of dairy products and eggs		Butter, Farmer, Feta, Mozzarella, Goat cheese, Soy Milk	All other dairy products and yogurts
Fat	Type Os respond well to oils	Olive Oil, Flaxseed oil	Canola oil, Sesame Oil	Corn oil, Peanut oil, Cottonseed oil, Safflower oil
Nuts	These foods should in no way take the place of high-protein meats, and they are high in fat especially if you are overweight.	Pumpkin seeds, Walnuts	All kinds except those listed not allowed	Brazil, Cashew, Peanut, Pistachios, Poppy Seeds
Beans	Type Os don't utilize beans particularly well. They tend to make muscle tissue slightly less acidic and inhibit the metabolism of other nutrients.	Aduke beans, Azuki beans, Pinto beans, Black-eyed peas	All kinds except those listed not allowed	Beans - copper, kidney, navy, tamarine. Lentils - domestic, green, red.
Grains	Type Os do not tolerate whole wheat products at all.	Essene Bread, Ezekiel Bread	Amaranth, Barley, Buckwheat, Rice, Kamut, Kasha, Millet, Rye, Spelt	Corn, Gluten, Graham, Wheat (Bulgur, Durum, Sprouted, white and whole, Germ and Bran) farina, Oat, Seven-grains, or any products such as flour, bread and noodles made with these grain products
Vegetables	These vegetables inhibit the thyroid function for Type Os			Brassica family: Cabbage, Brussels sprouts, cauliflower, mustard greens
	These vegetables help blood clot, Type Os lack several clotting fractors and need vitamin K to assist in the process	Kale, collard greens, romaine lettuce, broccoli, spinach
	These vegetables irritate the digestive tract and the high mold count can aggravate Type O hypersensitivity problems.			Alfalfa sprouts, shiitake mushrooms, fermented olives
	These vegetables can cause arthritic conditions in Type Os			Nightshades: eggplant, potatoes
	This vegetable affect the production of insulin, often lead to obesity and diabetes for the Type Os.			Corn
	This fruit agglutinate all blood types but Type Os.		Tomatoes
		Artichoke, Chicory, Dandelion, Garlic, Horseradish, Kale, Leek, Okra, Onions, Parsley, Parsnips, Red Peppers, Sweet potatoes, Pumpkin, seaweed, turnips	All kinds except those listed not allowed	avocado
Fruits	Dark red, blue and purple fruits tend to cause an alkaline reaction the digestive tract, and therefore balance the high acidity of the Type Os digestive tract to reduce ulcers and irritations of the stomach lining.	Plums, prunes, figs
	These fruits contain high mold counts which can aggravate Type Os hypersensitivity problems (allergies)			Melons, cantaloupe, honeydew
	These fruits are high in acid content which may irritate the acidic stomach of Type Os		Grapefruit, most berries	Oranges, tangerines and strawberries, blackberries, Rhubarb
	Fruits are not only an important source of fiber, minerals and vitamins, but they can be an excellent alternative to bread and pasta for Type Os		All kinds except those listed not allowed
	Type Os are extremely sensitive to this fruit.			coconut and coconut-containing products
Spices	Rich source of Iodine to regulate the thyroid gland	Kelp-based seasonings, iodized salt
	Soothing to the digestive tracts of Type Os	Parsley, curry, cayenne pepper
	Irritants to the Type O stomach			White and black pepper, vinegar, capers, cinnamon, Cornstarch, Corn syrup, Nutmeg, Vanilla
Condiments			chocolate, honey, cocao	Ketchup, pickles, mayonnaise, relish
Beverages		Seltzer water, Club soda and tea	Wine	Beer, Coffee, Distilled liquor, Black Tea

::how to make heartburn-free meals::

2011-07-04T00:00:00.002+08:00

got this from one of the websites i've read about gastric, acid reflux and heartburn.. though i dont really have heartburn, these tips are very useful so as not to trigger my gastric and acid reflux.. hope this helps anyone who has the same problem as me.. ^_^

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if you have heartburn, meals can be a minefield. careful choices may mean the difference between having a meal stay in your stomach or having it come back to haunt you later in the form of a burning, tingling sensation in your chest.

you've probably heard that it's best to steer clear of trigger foods like citrus, chocolate, alcohol, coffee, caffeine, and anything spicy. but if you're thinking bummer, then we have got news for you. heartburn-free eating doesnt have to bland of boring. here are a few simple tips for making delicious dishes and drinks that dont bring on that burning feeling.

everyday alternatives

by making smart substitutions and following some simple cooking tips you can still enjoy your favourites and keep heartburn from coming back. here's the list:

Instead of..	Try..
Coffee	Green tea with honey
Caffeinated sodas	Flavoured still water or mineral water
Frying or sautéing	Baking, roasting, grilling or broiling your meats
Tomato sauce	Tossing your whole-grain pasta in a broth based sauce flavoured with basil and thyme
Creamy salad dressings	Drizzling olive oil and a little cider on your salads
Potato chips	Snacking on whole wheat crackers with a bit of hummus, cut-up apples, or raisins with a few sesame seeds
Gravy	Topping meats and mashed potatoes with mushroom gravy
Full-fat dairy products	Low-fat sour cream, milk, cream cheese, yogurt and cheeses
Fatty desserts	Low-fat versions

::old pants::

2011-07-02T19:58:00.000+08:00

it has been 3 weeks of dieting for me.. though i didnt lose as much as i hoped within 3 weeks in terms of weight, but it seems i have been losing inches.. sbb seluar lama da bole pakai!!! hihihi.. happy sgt2! to date, i've only lost 3.5kg within 3 weeks.. cant wait to see how much i'll lose in a month..

some ppl can lose much faster by skipping meals or eating extremely little. however in my case, i have to eat regularly about 5 times a day because of my tummy problem (gastric & acid reflux). some ppl will eat green apples 1 - 2 times a day, but i have to stop eating green apples because it is sour.. but i will substitute green apples with other non-acidic food hehe..

because my illness does not permit me eating oily food, that will really2 help in my trimming down journey ^_^

i have just started exercising.. but if m not well of course i'll take it easy on the exercise.. but if m well, i'd definitely do at least a half-hour aerobics.. even tho buat kat rumah je, but phewww peluh n pancit gila ok.. hahahaha.. hope this journey will last for a long time.. tak nak la stop tgh jalan kan.. i wanna be like the girl dlm gmbr tu, at her goal weight.. ;)

wish me luck!

::lets learn about gastric reflux::

2011-07-02T00:34:00.000+08:00

so.. doctor said i have gastric & acid reflux, or also called gastric reflux.. and after researching about this, i can now manage my food better so as not to trigger the gastric/acid.. basically, i cannot eat spicy, oily and acidic food.. also a few beverages like coffee (uwaaaa!!!!), soda and other acidic drinks.. gosh m so gonna miss tom yam.. and ribena.. and definitely nescafe!

*got this from gastricsymptoms.info*

Symptoms:

Abdominal Pain

Abdominal pain is the most common symptom of a gastric ulcer. This pain can be burning, gnawing or aching, and it might feel similar to hunger pains. The pain occurs anywhere between the navel and the breastbone, and occasionally spreads to the back. The most common location for gastric ulcer pain is just beneath the rib cage on the left side of the body. Gastric ulcer pain frequently attacks within two to three hours of eating a meal but can also occur at night when the stomach is empty.

Indigestion

Another common gastric ulcer symptom is indigestion, which typically involves a burning sensation in the middle of the chest. This indigestion can make a gastric ulcer sufferer burp, belch or hiccup quite frequently. Some gastric ulcer patients feel a slight choking sensation during a bout of indigestion. The indigestion usually disappears after taking an acid reducer or an antacid. This symptom is frequently mistaken for simple heartburn or gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD).

Other Symptoms

Gastric ulcer patients can suffer from a host of other symptoms, including headaches, dizziness, light-headedness, fatigue, weakness and pale skin. Gastric ulcers occasionally produce scar tissue that obstructs the passage of food through an individual’s digestive tract. This can cause the patient to vomit frequently or feel quite full after eating very little. Some individuals report feeling bloated after eating, while others complain of significantly decreased appetite levels. All of these factors can cause unintentional weight loss.

Bleeding Gastric Ulcers

Bleeding gastric ulcer can trigger less common but potentially more serious symptoms. A bleeding ulcer can cause a patient to throw up bright red blood or to vomit digested blood that looks similar to brown coffee grounds. A bleeding ulcer might also cause a patient to pass stools that contain dark red blood or to pass black stools that look like tar. All of these are signs of a severe gastric ulcer. Any individual suffering from these symptoms should schedule an appointment to see a doctor as soon as possible.

Gastric Reflux occurs when the tube used to intake food is not strong enough to handle the acid. The food you eat is digested by the stomach with the help of an acid produced and stored by it. The stomach walls are built strong enough to store that acid without causing damage. A general rule is to avoid large meals, fatty or spicy food and avoid eating before you sleep.

We will start with a checklist of common foods to avoid. The following foods will exacerbate your gastric reflux.

Meat: in particular beef. Since meat contains a lot of protein, more acid is needed to digest it.

Processed Food: these foods contain additives. Additives contain concentrated acid that help maintain and prolong the shelf life of food.

Soda/ Carbonated Beverages: these beverages can contain the following ingredients; acetic acid, citric acid, ascorbic acid and phosphoric acid.

Now lets go over some foods that will help your gastric reflux

Fruits: Pineapple and papaya are good because they help neutralize the acid in your stomach

Vegetables: try the following green beans, peas, carrots, and broccoli

Grains: most all grains are safe to eat

Mineral water: best beverage, will never upset your gastric reflux

In summary the following foods are safe:

-apples, bananas, broccoli, carrots, peas, green beans, chicken breast, fish, fat free or low fat cheese, whole grain bread, brown bread.

While the following foods are unsafe:

-citrus fruits, cranberry juice, tomatoes and tomato based food, peppers, onions, spicy food, most of the dairy products, caffeine, high fat foods, cheese, fatty cuts of meat, alcohol and chocolate.

on a bright side, hope this will help me lose more weight!! hihihi.. ^_^

::blood test result::

2011-06-28T16:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday i had to do a blood test.. please read this entry for clearer understanding of this entry.. :)

alhamdulillah.. my blood test result is NEGATIVE.. means i dont have h.pylori.. alhamdulillah.. but.. wat do i have then.. the answer to this question can only be answered on thursday, as i just found out the doc i saw yesterday is only on duty on monday n thursday..

::adoi sakitnya peruttttttt::

2011-06-27T16:33:00.002+08:00

i have been having stomach problems for a few days already.. i mean it has been recurring for 3 days now.. usually it will be on and off, on and off.. this will not be my 1st time experiencing this kinda discomfort and illness.. i had it first time during my degree years, but it wasnt serious.. then when i started working for a particular boss at my previous employer in 2007, my tummy started being ill again.. docs said i got gastric.. years and years after that, this doesnt go away and everytime i go to clinic, the diagnose will be either gastric or wind.

last night after researching through the internet, with all the symptoms i have, i thought i have acid reflux.. i became more confident that i have acid reflux when i read the list of food i should avoid for prevention..

today, my tummy became worse.. so after lunch i went to the doc.. he asked me a lot of questions:-

1) how long have i been having this stomach pain

2) when m having the pain, and when i eat, do i feel painful immediately or after i finished eating

3) do i vomit after food intake

and mcm2 lg la.. tak igt da..

i asked if i have acid reflux and he said no.. then i had to give my blood sample, fearing tat i may have h.pylori.. i will have my result in 2 days, m hoping it is just a simple gastric problem, and not h.pylori.. :(

what is h.pylori? putting it in laymen terms, it means my stomach may be infected by a bacteria..

the signs and symptoms are:-

Although over 80% of individuals infected with the bacterium are asymptomatic,^[1] symptoms associated with H. pylori can be vague or vary over time. They may be nonspecific, or caused by other conditions. Inflammation of, or damage to the stomach lining (gastritis) by H. pylorimay cause mild or serious reactions to the stomach's contents—stomach ache or abdominal pain, acid reflux, regurgitation, vomiting,belching, flatulence, and nausea.

If untreated for a long time, H. pylori infections may be related to several serious illnesses: gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD), peptic ulcers (duodenal or gastric ulcers), and cancers of the esophagus and stomach.

the signs n symptoms i can say i have 80% of them.. aiyoh so scary.. i agreed to a blood test when the doc mentioned that this thing if untreated for a long time, can cause cancer.. esp when i've been having this for 4 years already.. even if i have h.pylori, i hope it is still in its early stage where it is still treatable via medicines.. on top of everything, i was also diagnosed with low blood pressure.. haihhh..

i was advised by the doc to rest a lot, jgn stress2 sgt, and eat regularly, dont skip any meal, dont eat oily & acidic food..

hope i get well soon, and hope i dont have h.pylori.. ^_^

::another meal plan ideas::

2011-06-25T16:27:00.000+08:00

salam all, hope this helps to those who wants to lose weight..

most of the items mmg i tgh buat skrg, so this looks ok to me hehe.. to those yg tak leh tinggal nasi dont fret, coz this meal plan ada nasi!! ^_^

Upon wake up	A glass of water

Breakfast	Toasted wholemeal bread (2 pcs) + fruit jam (avoid peanut butter)
7am – 930am	OR
	Fiber biscuits (4 pcs)
	OR
	Cereal/Nestum
	OR
	Toast + 2 hard boiled eggs

Tea Break	Fruits/Yogurt (avoid durian, mango, banana)
10am – 12pm

Lunch	Nasi campur (1/2 rice + 2 x vegetables + 1 x protein (fish/tofu/chicken)
12pm – 2pm	OR
	Soupy noodles (soup/tom yam) – avoid mee, kueytiaw
	OR
	Spaghetti
	OR
	Grilled salmon/chicken + 1 bowl salad

Tea break	Fiber biscuits (4 pcs)
Before 4pm	OR
	Fruits + Yogurt (avoid durian, mango, banana)

Dinner	Soup + unlimited vegetables + protein
Before 8pm	OR
	Protein ONLY (steam chicken/fish/egg/tofu)
	OR
	Vegetables ONLY

::breakfast ideas::

2011-06-25T09:18:00.000+08:00

got this info from 'the malaysian women's weekly'.. for now, i share their breakfast ideas, as for lunch n dinner, later2 la k..

2 boiled/poached eggs on a single wholemeal bread with 1 tbsp of low-fat spread

oats porridge with dried raisin

2 fat-free chapattis with kuah dal

fish congee/porridge

beehoon soup with fish balls

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so if u noticed, they propose beehoon and porridge which i dont eat kan.. because my breakfast are mostly kat kedai, so my options are quite limited.. i usually opt for roti bakar, sometimes with half boiled eggs.. if i can get fruits, i will eat banana before everything else.. usually 1 banana pun da kenyang giler.. and since i dont eat oats porridge, i opt for muesli cereal with fresh fruits if possible.. :)

::back to diet journey::

2011-06-25T09:10:00.000+08:00

as some of you may know, m back on the dieting track, hopefully this time lama sikit la.. m just like most of u yg selalu hangat2 tahi ayam hahahaha..

*pic from google. tats not my weight tau! hihihihi.. ^_^

so after reading the article about rice, ajoy and i have decided to slash rice, kuey tiaw, meehoon, laksa and semua la yg rice based food.. alhamdulillah after a week, we managed to shed about 2kg..

we're also trying to avoid processed sauces such as chilli sauce, tomato sauce, oyster sauce, etc. kalau nk amik pun sikit2 je la, just for taste.. why? because these products contains a lot of sodium, tat results in water retention in our body. or in layman term ~ gemok air. and of course, do not take mayonnaise, thousand island, tartar sauce or apa2 yg mayo base.. 99% fat tau!! unless amik yg 0% fat ok la kan.. ada ke? hehehe.. so now i eat lots of vege n fruits, more than before..

i used to exercise a lot before keje, but now mmg takde masa.. i believe tat is one of the reason my body makin naik n makin naik.. haihhh... so now m determined to start my own exercise regimen at home.. tp kalau at home mmg malas yg amatttt.. esp lepas balik keje tu.. but come to think about it, this lack of energy is also due to lack of exercise kan..

well lets see how long this will last, and how much weight shed.. hihihi.. wish me luck!

Eat Less Rice? Why???

2011-06-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

got this from my mum.. hope u can benefit from this too.. ^_^

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Eat Less Rice?? WHY?????

The human body was never meant to consume rice! You see, our genes have hardly changed in more than 30,000 years. However, our food choices and lifestyle have changed dramatically. The caveman would hardly recognise our food or way of life. Caveman food was never cooked as fire was not yet tamed. Thus, he ate only those foods that you can eat without treatment with or by fire. He ate fruits, vegetables, fish (sushi anyone?), eggs, nuts and meat. Yes, even meat! You can even eat meat raw if you were starving in the forest. You have the necessary enzymes to digest meat.

However, rice, like wheat and corn, cannot be eaten raw. It must be cooked. Even if you were starving in the desert, you cannot eat rice in the raw form. This is because we do not have the system of enzymes to break rice down. You were never meant to eat rice. To make matters worse, you not only eat rice, but also make it the bulk of your food.

In some parts of Asia, rice forms up to 85% of the plate. Even if you take rice, keep it to a minimum. Remember, it is only for your tongue - not your body. Actually, rice and other grains like wheat and corn are actually worse than sugar.

There are many reasons:

Rice becomes sugar - lots of it!

This is a fact that no nutritionist can deny: rice is chemically no different from sugar. One bowl of cooked rice is the caloric equal of 10 teaspoons of sugar. This does not matter whether it is white, brown or herbal rice. Brown rice is richer in fibre, some B vitamins and minerals but it is still the caloric equal of 10 teaspoons of sugar. To get the same 10 teaspoons of sugar, you need to consume lots of kangkong-10 bowls of it.

Rice is digested to become sugar.
Rice cannot be digested before it is thoroughly cooked. However, when thoroughly cooked, it becomes sugar and spikes circulating blood sugar within half an hour-almost as quickly as it would if you took a sugar candy. Rice is very low in the 'rainbow of anti-oxidants. '

This complete anti-oxidant rainbow is necessary for the effective and safe utilisation of sugar. Fruits come with a sugar called fructose. However, they are not empty calories as the fruit is packed with a whole host of other nutrients that help its proper assimilation and digestion.

Rice has no fibre.
The fibre of the kangkong fills you up long before your blood sugar spikes. This is because the fibre bulks and fills up your stomach. Since white rice has no fibre, you end up eating lots of 'calorie dense' food before you get filled up. Brown rice has more fibre but still the same amount of sugar.

Rice is tasteless-sugar is sweet.

There is only so much that you can eat at one sitting. How many teaspoons of sugar can you eat before you feel like throwing up? Could you imagine eating 10 teaspoons of sugar in one seating?

Rice is always the main part of the meal.

While sugar may fill your dessert or sweeten your coffee, it will never be the main part of any meal. You could eat maybe two to three teaspoons of sugar at one meal. However, you could easily eat the equal value of two to three bowls (20-30 teaspoons) of sugar in one meal. I am always amused when I see someone eat sometimes five bowls of rice (equals 50 teaspoons of sugar) and then asks for tea tarik kurang manis!

There is no real 'built in' mechanism for us to prevent overeating of rice:
How much kangkong can you eat?
How much fried chicken can you eat?
How much steamed fish can you eat?
Think about that!

In one seating, you cannot take lots of chicken, fish or cucumber, but you can take lots of rice. Eating rice causes you to eat more salt. As rice is tasteless, you tend to consume more salt-another villain when it comes to high blood pressure. You tend to take more curry that has salt to help flavor rice. We also tend to consume more ketchup and soy sauce which are also rich in salt.

Eating rice causes you to drink less water.
The more rice you eat, the less water you will drink as there is no mechanism to prevent the overeating of rice. Rice, wheat and corn come hidden in our daily food. As rice is tasteless, it tends to end up in other foods that substitute rice like rice flour, noodles and bread. We tend to eat the hidden forms which still get digested into sugar.

Rice, even when cooked, is difficult to digest.
Can't eat raw rice? Try eating rice half cooked. Contrary to popular belief, rice is very difficult to digest. It is 'heavy stuff'. If you have problems with digestion, try skipping
rice for a few days. You will be amazed at how the problem will just go away.

Rice prevents the absorption of several vitamins and minerals.
Rice when taken in bulk will reduce the absorption of vital nutrients like zinc, iron and the B vitamins.

Are you a rice addict? Going rice-less may not be easy but you can go rice-less. Eating less rice could be lot easier than you think. Here are some strategies that you can pursue in your quest to eat less rice:

Eat less rice-cut your rice by half.

Barry Sears, author of the Zone Diet, advises 'eating rice like spice'. Instead, increase your fruits and vegetables. Take more lean meats and fish. You can even take more eggs and nuts.

Have 'riceless' meals.
Take no rice or wheat at say, breakfast. Go for eggs instead.

Go on 'riceless' days.
Go 'western' once a week.

Take no rice and breads for one day every week.
That can't be too difficult. Appreciate the richness of your food. Go for taste, colours and smells. Make eating a culinary delight. Enjoy your food in the original flavours.

Avoid the salt shaker or ketchup or chili sauce.
You will automatically eat less rice.

Eat your fruit dessert before (Yes! No printing error) your meals.
The fibre rich fruits will 'bulk up' in your stomach. Thus, you will eat less rice and more fruits.

It's your life. Decide what you want to eat! But eat less rice!

::acceptance::

2011-06-07T23:09:00.003+08:00

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another lazy entry.. just got back from penang.. day trip pulak tu.. penat giler!

~11 foods for faster, easier weight loss~

2011-06-01T20:53:00.000+08:00

got this from yahoo.. hope i can benefit from this too hehehe..

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Hold this thought: To lose weight effectively and permanently, you need to eat. And eat smart. Happily, nature designed a lot of delicious edibles to turn up your fat-burning furnace, flatten your belly, and take a big bite out of your appetite. Here are 11 of the get-slim food gems we're talking about.

1) yogurt

Mmmm. This creamy, tangy snack is loaded with calcium -- and studies show that calcium may curtail weight gain by hindering the absorption of fat in the small intestine.

2) eggs

Turn breakfast into a fat-burning morning boost by skipping the stack of pancakes and feasting on a couple of eggs instead. According to a study, huevos beat out carbs when it came to helping folks feel full longer and helping them beat back snack attacks later in the day

3) Pistachios

Nuts may be high in fat, but it's the healthful unsaturated kind of fat found in pistachios. And like all nuts, pistachios offer lots of hunger-curbing protein and fiber. All of these qualities together explain why adding pistachios to the diet helped dieters in a study curb their appetites and lose more weight

4) Grapefruit

Of all the foods rumored to boost weight loss, grapefruit is likely the most famous. And research confirms that this fruit's get-slim celebrity status is for real. One study in particular revealed that eating half a grapefruit before each meal helped dieters shed more pounds than people who skipped the tart appetizer

5) Avocado

This green goddess of heavenly, creamy taste can help you whittle your waist. It's true! Researchers suspect that the unsaturated fat in avocados may ratchet up body levels of the hunger-halting hormone called leptin -- a hormone that lets your brain know that you're full, so you stop eating.

6) Mushrooms

If you want to try an easy and tasty calorie-cutting trick, then replace the meat in your favorite recipes with mushrooms. You'll automatically cut about 420 calories out of a meal, partly because you'll skip all the belly-padding saturated fat contained in meat

7) Olive Oil

This rich-tasting oil found in salad dressings and marinades contains a hunger-busting monounsaturated fat called oleic acid -- which triggers a complicated process in the gut that ultimately tells your brain you're full and makes you want to stop eating

8) Whole Grains

Ready to trade your belly bulge for a flat tummy? Then toss your refined grains into the garbage, and eat more whole grains instead. Research shows this one move can help whittle your middle. We're talking brown rice, quinoa, steel-cut oats, whole-grain cereal, and 100% whole-wheat bread and pasta.

9) Red Pepper

Add some heat to your meals and you'll boost not only the taste but also the effectiveness of your weight loss diet. A dash of cayenne pepper or some diced jalapeno or red peppers will do the trick. They all contain capsaicin -- the heat-inducing compound in red peppers that, according to research, tamps down appetite and curbs food intake later in the day.

10) Fava Beans

Creamy and hearty, fava beans are a lean protein source bursting with flavonoids. And in a 14-year study, these special antioxidants were shown to help hinder the accumulation of extra belly fat

11) Rice With Veggies!!!

Adding some high-fiber vegetables like broccoli, carrots, and kale to your rice will obviously help lower the calorie count. But not only that. Adding veggies to rice at lunchtime appears to slow stomach emptying, according to research. The end result? You feel full longer. In fact, people in a study ate much less at dinner when they added veggies to their rice at lunch.

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p/s: entry malas.. hehe.. sorry.. agak bz lately.. ni pun break otak kejap..

::nora elena::

2011-05-25T22:17:00.001+08:00

sape tgk citer ni angkat tgn??? sape tak tgk rugi! hihihi.. takde la.. gurau jer..

my close friends wud know tat i dont actually read or watch citer melayu, unless da tayang masa raya tu baru tgk.. ada la reasons dia, nk citer sini kang menyimpang citer pulak.. tp cukup la utk i katakan, most of the stories are very predictable n cliche..

citer nora elena pun camtu gak.. tapi sbb i ni actually peminat aaron aziz.. bukan minat lakonan dia.. tp minat dia sbb dia ensem n macho hahahahaha.. i saw him once masa tggu ajoy fetch me from ofc, he walked past me to go to maybank.. mak aihhhhh.. hensem n macho gilerrrrrrrr!!!!

ok ok berpijak ke reality balik ek.. hahahaha.. this drama is relatively new, and is a loose adaptation from a book called kasih yang suci.. haishhh nk cari la buku ni.. nk baca hehehe.. tp bila da tgk citer ni baru tau yg aaron mmg pandai betul berlakon!!! tak sia2 minat kat dia hehehe.. yg berlakon as nora elena (siti saleha) pun cantik sgt.. ex tunang dia eid (zul ariffin) pun tak kurang macho n hensemnya.. so kira sedappp je mata mandang tgk citer ni hihihi.. ok tak yah citer panjang, pendek kata mmg best la citer ni!! kalau tak sempat nk catch mmg confirm tgk kat tonton.. ^_^

jom layan gambar yg tak byk mana pun..

::the boat::

2011-05-19T18:34:00.000+08:00

the water is unpredictable..

sometimes its calm..

sometimes it rocks..

no matter wat..

the boat seems solid to endure anything..

come what may..

but sometimes..

though destination has been decided..

questions linger..

left, right or straight or retreat..

sometimes..

i wonder..

am i alone in this boat..

am i alone in this journey..

::hot hot hot!!!!

2011-05-09T21:24:00.001+08:00

it has been so hot for a few days now..

dulu kan, ajoy and i decided not to install aircond because our house can be so cold tat sometimes, we can hang out without the fan on.. we can also sleep with the fan switched off tau, sometimes siap selimut lg..

but these days.. masyaAllah.. mmg tak tahan.. fan full blast, full power pun rasa mcm fan no. 1 lg.. aiyoh, now i wish we have aircond.. according to some of my friends, psg aircond temp 16 degrees pun panas lg.. apa lagi yg takde aircond cam kitaorg ni.. hihihihi..

tp bila pikir balik.. kalau kat dunia panas camni pun tak tahan.. haihhhh.. u knw where m going with this kan. Subhanallah..

::imperfection you say?::

2011-05-09T10:02:00.000+08:00

do u see imperfection?

well, marilyn monroe said:

:: mentor & AF ::

2011-05-08T23:57:00.001+08:00

sape tgk mentor angkat tgn?? i watch mentor whenever i remember (selalunya lupa hihi), and started watching when my friends said mentor is way better than AF.. AF pulak, mula2 igt since this year is their last year nk la start tgk balik setelah bertahun2 da tak follow.. tp sbb hampeh cam hampas jugak, langsung tak tgk dah after the 1st concert.. anyway, m sure everyone is familiar with AF's cliche sad ending during elimination kan..

i've never watched mentor's elimination.. and tonite, i watched the show half way, and got to watch the elimination.. i like how they show the scores overall and we immediately know who's going home.. tp yg tak bestnya bila da tau sape yg eliminated tu.. tiba2 si mamat terjah melodi (ntah sape nama dia) tu kuar with sad music.. i was like oh no man.. pls laaa..

so this terjah guy was trying to set a sad mood la konon.. n bila aiman (yg eliminated tat nite) requested to change the music because he is not sad, this terjah guy mcm tak puas hati kut.. mula ckp benda ngarut2.. saje nk provoke aiman ni.. saya tau awak nk lawan perasaan la.. muka nmpk sedih tp tak nak tunjuk la.. tak rasa bersalah ke pd penonton dan peminat la.. i mean wth man.. this aiman to me is man enough to suck it up, be professional and keep his composure.. tak pyh la nk buat gimmick2 cam AF bole tak.. so cheesy ok.. tak kena langsung dgn d quality of the show.. it is just sad..

m sure u also watch american idol jugak tul tak.. tgk budak2 tu bila kena eliminate.. they will keep their composure until their last song on the stage, tu pun masa credits are rolling.. they dont need to put on sad tunes and do the AF stunts kan.. camtu la patutnya..

pastu nnti malaysian show producers complain malaysians tak sokong local shows.. change la.. jgn asyik complain kitaorg tak sokong industry filem/tv local..

p/s: sorry emo ckit.. cuaca panas sgt kut.. tu yg jd panassss je tu.. :P

::happy mother's day::

2011-05-08T22:14:00.000+08:00

happy mothers day to our mummy and mama!!!

and to all the mothers out there..

^_^

::adoiiiii::

2011-05-03T18:08:00.000+08:00

had an embarassing moment pagi tadi.. pagi2 ada appoinment with doc.. since yday nite hujan, so most roads were covered with water puddles everywhere kan.. as i was trying to get to our car, i was trying to be careful as not to step on any water puddle.. tiba2.. tanggggg!!!!! adoi!!!! terhantuk kepala!! i looked up to look at wat i had hit.. igtkan apa.. rupanyer bunting2 yg org gantung on the lamp post tu.. sakit siotttt..

nasib baik takde org keliling.. tapi.. my husband asyik gelakkkkkk jer... *malu*

tu la, nk elakkan benda kat bwh, kepala pulak yg kena.. too careful pun tak bagus kan.. hihihi..

*source: mr gugle

::halangan/obstacle::

2011-05-03T00:29:00.001+08:00

in life, we will be faced with all kinds of halangan/obstacles or challenges kan.. tats life.. i understand that part.. but what if, you learn that something/someone is actually obstructing something you have worked for deliberately? this is something i havent been able to get my mind off it ever since i learnt about this particular obstacle in my life..

what i wud like to say here is.. yes, rezeki dtg dari Allah.. apa jua rezeki yg kita nak, kita perlu berusaha utk dptkannya.. betul? watever rezeki, walau dlm apa jua bentuk, have to be worked on.. some ppl have it easy, some ppl dont.. tat includes having a baby.. a job.. a project.. or apa saja la kan..

i have been told by someone yg lebih arif recently that "ada yg menghalang" for me to conceive.. something or someone, belum tau lg.. quite a blow to me and i kept thinking what is it or sape yg sanggup buat camni?? what i am doing now is merely eliminating the halangan or in other terms unblocking it, and let nature run its natural course, insyaAllah..

org kata, bila kita dpt baby, rezeki pun insyaAllah bertambah.. or am i wrong?? so if you love us, do doa for that halangan to be diminished k.. tq all..

lots of luv,
a confused woman..

::movie review: cun! and hikayat merong mahawangsa::

2011-05-02T21:56:00.000+08:00

my 2 cent review on this movie: 4 1/2 stars out 5.. story line of course very predictable.. some parts are very cliche.. some parts ada sedih dia jugak.. but overall ttp layan jugak.. esp bila petang2 bosan2 takde tv show..

i love maya & remy's chemistry in here.. cuma si kuntom tu, ntah apa nama betul dia hehe, overall mmg ok, tp bila dia gelak tu aisehman, spoil la.. over bebenor! :P plg best part kerbau diaorg tu.. alahai kesian tul tgk kobau tu.. kalau korang lum tgk, korang kena tgk la apa diaorg buat kat kobau tu.. kihkihkih..

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citer HMM pulak, da tgk lama da actually.. tp tak dan pulak nk tulis review dia..

i think overall it is ok.. but i can only give 4 out 5 stars.. i honestly think their picture quality is superb compared to almost all malay movies.. clear sgt2.. cgi can be improved tremendously sbb some part nmpk giler cgi.. storyline yg part2 cliche tu biasa la kan, kata citer melayu kehkehkeh.. tp overall ok la.. bole la layan..

to those who dont know me well, mmg tau i dont layan citer melayu sbnrnyer.. only selected ones.. or kalau cerekerama yg org recommend to watch.. but overall i dont.. sblm ni la.. now, i try to be more open to this idea.. y i dont before is because the storylines are almost always predictable and cliche.. it is time for malaysian movie/drama producers to improve.. omputih pun byk buat love stories.. but their storylines are so creative.. just wish malaysian film industries will move towards better storylines.. ^_^

ok tu je la.. takde nk elaborate byk pun.. hehe..

::figured out::

2011-05-01T14:14:00.000+08:00

remember this entry about my enquiry about my blog?

i got it all figured & sorted out.. yeay!!!

how? i googled! ^_^

tu je nk citer hehehe..

::the lazy day::

2011-05-01T14:08:00.000+08:00

m sure everyone have had this kinda day at least once in their lives.. today is it for us.. hehehe..

imagine, we had less than rm10 on us, smlm malas nak pegi ATM hehe.. and then today nk kuar punyer la malasnyer masyaAllah.. and dapur pulak kosong, i havent been buying any barang dapur sbb mmg dah lama tak masak hehehe..

bfast da covered coz we got my MIL's bread.. but then came lunch time.. kitaorg mmg malas yg amat nk kuar panas2 sbb aircond rosak hihi.. so with tat rm10, kitaorg pun beli la a few things.. nasib baik beras mmg ada kat umah.. nk tak nak kena gak mkn nasi.. with telur goreng.. and sardin goreng.. and sayur goreng hihihi.. bole la kan.. reminded me of our good ol days.. masa i used to cook lauk simple2 canie.. ^_^

enjoy yr sundays everyone.. and to wrap up my entry, here's a song for every lazy bums out there.. hehe..

::new look::

2011-04-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

decided to change the look of my blog.. cantik tak?

see the red circles? i want the blog title to be bold tp dah godek2 tak jadik jugak.. y eh???

and then pages tu nk centerkan tak reti.. how eh??

HELP!!!!!

::the royal wedding::

2011-04-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

tgk tak prince william & kate kawin today?? tak nak citer byk, just a short comment: love them together! love kate! love love love her dress!!

i missed their arrival and the arrival of their guests including our Agong coz i am not feeling well, masa tu tgh tido hehehe.. now nk tgk balik the beginning.. ^_^

anyways, congratulations to the duke and duchess of cambridge, prince william & princess catherine (kate)..

somehow or rather ajoy and i do feel quite connected to this because ajoy was born in london, n me in UK.. tu yg cam nk jugak tgk their wedding wpun tak sihat hihihi..

::mini reunion & irma's bday celebration::

2011-04-29T10:05:00.000+08:00

last thurs we had a simple and small suprise bday celebration for irma as well as mini reunion at full house, jln yap kwan seng.. we gave irma a slice of red velvet from bisou and a small box containing a few simple gifts for irma.. murah2 jer hehehe sorry darling.. ^_^ and nasib baik jugak beli 1 slice of cake jer.. share2 between all 5 of us pun susah giler nk abiskan coz kekenyangan yg amat..

the highlight of the reunion was photog session after dinner.. kitaorg buat FH (full house) tu mcm rumah sdri.. suka hati je amik gmbr sana sini.. well i think the restaurant was built for ppl giler camera cam kitaorg.. hihihihi..

theme for the nite was red.. and irma coming wearing white with red belt tu mcm kena la sgt2 sbb nmpk like she was the queen of the nite kan.. hehehe..

ok malas nk citer pjg2.. we had loads of fun.. laughed a lot smpi sakit perut.. will definitely do this again.. gmbr pun i letak ckit dah la eh.. ni pun curi from irma's fb hihihi..

::the king's speech::

2011-04-29T00:30:00.000+08:00

i've been wanting to watch this movie for a longggg time.. i am not sure about this, but i dont think this movie has arrived malaysia yet or ever.. but, ajoy has downloaded this movie and we had a blast watching it..

at first i thought this would be a blardy boring movie.. but boy was i wrong.. captivating from start to end.. funny as h*ll too.. for more info on this movie.. wiki it!! ^_^

malas nk citer pjg2.. sorry hehehe.. :P

::a gift from my bff::

2011-04-29T00:20:00.000+08:00

last monday, my bff sha gave me a beautiful kaftan.. and its pink! my fave colour of course! love it, love it, love it to the max!! yeay da ada baju raya hehehehe.. tq so much darling! *hugssss*

::a visit to the baby doctor::

2011-04-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

first of all, dont get me wrong.. hehehe.. still not pregnant yet.. which was why we went to a baby doctor.. just to check if something is wrong with us.. the doc we met was very2 nice.. and he gave me a homework for me to read on wat's to come, wat will be done to us, esp to me, causes for probable infertility n such.. this is a paper done by National Institute for Clinical Excellence (NICE) from UK..

tis is a very good info for all of us still trying to conceive, esp those married more than 1 year.. i have to tell you there are 80 pages, but not to worry, tulisan dia besar2 and you only have to read certain parts.. page 1 - 8 tu my doc kata tak pyh baca pun takpe.. and then when it comes to IVF and other methods if we are really infertile tu tak yah la baca lg sbb test lum buat lg kan.. plus some of the info are quite different from other reading materials i've read..

ok enough membebel.. have fun reading!!

Assessment and treatment for people with fertility problems

source: google image

::hijabi fashionistas/stylistas::

2011-04-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

ever since i've turned a new life into a hijabi, i've been so inspired by hana tajima and her scarflets (if i may call them that).. they are very bold in mixing fashion with hijab which i admire very much..

i have learnt that wearing hijab does not mean we cant melawa2 which is such a contrary to most ppl's opinion on hijabs.. in fact, i believe we can be a lot more creative with hijabs.. if i may say so.. hehe..

however kan.. yg buat frustrating nyer kan.. most of these hijabi fashionistas/sylistas are so skinny, slim n tall.. so for sure la apa2 they all pakai pun nmpk cantikkkk jer.. pelik2 pun nmpk cantik jugak.. some of the styles i also cannot digest, pelik bonar.. but those yg i like, nnti i'll feel like ala dia tinggi, dia slim bole la pki camtu.. bila aku pki nmpk huduh.. hihihi.. esp now tat i've gained soooo much inches and bulges!!

haihhh my never ending battle of love-hate relationship with my body.. m sure many girls out there feels me.. kan kan kan..

and to add to that, i found this girl from a link my friend gave me about hijab & fashion and i love her! dina toki-o adds to my list of fashionable hijabis i love..;) have a look at her styles..

cantik kannnnnn.... ;)

::glee much??

2011-04-23T11:59:00.000+08:00

are you a gleek???

well ajoy and i are.. kind of.. hehehe.. i love to watch the show for the songs.. and the moves.. i like quinn coz she's so pretty and perfect.. i love some of the story lines in it..

HOWEVER.. some of the stories/story line just dont make sense.. it is like the writers just write for the sake of writing, thinking their fans will just accept watever's being thrown at them.. well maybe majority does.. but i for one think tat some things just dont make sense..

for example.. sue sylvester got a part time gig as oral intensity's coach?? u knw how astro repeat their shows like 100 times? so every time this episode comes on and i happen to watch it i will definitely say how illogical it is for a coach from school A, can be glee club coach at another school.. in reality, tat will never ever happen.. just absurd.. tah pape tah..

and please dont get me started on the relationships that goes around in that group.. urrghhhhh..

seriously writers, time to be more creative ok..

::new family member::

2011-04-23T08:41:00.001+08:00

introducing our newest family member: aqif iman.. actually this entry bole dikatakan agak basi coz afiq is already 2 weeks plus old.. afiq arrived the world on 5th april 2011.. ni la aqif, cute kannnnn..

welcome to the family aqif iman.. ^_^

::role of husband n wife::

2011-04-23T02:14:00.000+08:00

got this thru an email.. read up peeps.. ;)

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Aku rasa adat kita membentuk bagaimana berkembangnya hubungan suami isteri itu.Isteri dipanggil dengan gelaran "orang rumah","suri rumah" atau "tukang masak."

Kalau kita lihat pun,banyak petua2 orang tua yang membuatkan kaum perempuan dilabelkan sebagai "mereka yang bekerja di dapur" dan "tukang masak masakan kegemaran suami."

Jadi,meh sini aku bagitau korang satu benda penting yang aku belajar daripada kursus kahwin hari tu.

Dalam hubungan suami isteri mengikut Islam,tugas-tugas memasak,mengemas rumah,cuci kipas,cat dinding,basuk berak anak,mem-vacuum rumah dan sebagainya..

....adalah tugas si Suami.Suami bertanggungjawab memastikan semua benda tu dan fungsi suami adalah "BEKERJA" untuk rumah tangga itu.

Tugas isteri?

Tugas isteri hanyalah taat dan patuh kepada suami serta mencantikkan diri untuk suami (untuk suami dan bukan untuk orang awam,pakai perfume habis satu ofis bau.).Jika seseorang isteri itu enggan memasak atas arahan suaminya,isterinya tidak bersalah kerana itu tugas suami.Isteri ada hak membantu suaminya membuat kerja2 itu jika suaminya memerlukan pertolongan.

Tengok drama,siapa masak? Siapa sapu sampah? Siapa mandikan anak?
Perempuan kan? Itu semua sebab adat kita.Ikut agama lain bang. Nak ikut mana?

Kaum lelaki semua,bersedialah untuk belajar memasak dan memakai apron di rumah.Mental aku lepas tau benda tu terus terganggu sekejap.Habis luruh segala pemahaman lama aku pasal tugas suami isteri ni.

Ada lah seketika tu aku wish aku ada vagina.
Dan baru lah aku sedar,suami yang menggelarkan isteri mereka orang rumah adalah suami yang tak

menunaikan tanggungjawab diorang,sebab lelaki sepatutnya "orang rumah" sesebuah keluarga.

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actually da byk kali jumpa something like this.. but, somehow the majority of marriages are still stuck in the ancient adat in perkahwinan.. i dont know bout other races, but this definitely happens a lot amongst malays..

however, i do know that many married couples my generations are going towards the roles mentioned above.. many husbands are now cooking for their wives and families, and also kemas rumah too.. my husband is also one of them.. (love u cyg!)

now m sure like me, u hv wondered why male chefs cook better than us females do kan.. tats because they are meant to cook to begin with hahahaha logic tak reasoning tu.. pandai2 je aku ni.. kihkihkih.. :P

m not saying we ladies/wives should stop cooking.. i wont.. i love cooking.. m just saying, when we cook, cook because we love to do it, because we wanna do it, because we feel like helping our husband ke apa ke, BUT try not to do it because terpaksa, or because rasa obligated..

as for husbands, dont treat yr wives like they're your personal chef pls.. esp if she's working.. the fact tat she's working to help you support your household means you should be more thankful to have such a wife, and household workload should be divided together fairly.. ;)

just my two cents.. ^_^

::ONLY 1 yr 4 mths::

2011-04-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

1 yr 4 mths.. tats how long ajoy and i have been married.. not even a year and a half yet, tp feels like we've been together forever, and at the same time also feels like we've just got married. make sense tak? hehehe.. well it does to me..

anyhow, somehow some ppl thinks we've been married too long, and the fact tat we're not pregnant yet seems like impossible to these ppl.. like we are supposed to be pregnant already. HOWEVER, the fact of the matter is.. whenever anybody from the medical background asks us if we already children and of course we say no, and when they found out we've just been married for 1 year 4 mths, ALL of these professionals will tell us, laaa baru lagiiiiiii or tats not too long, still early or something along that line..

i guess tats y we're kinda taking a stroll along that road instead of hopping on a concorde towards having a baby.. we're gonna listen to medical ppl instead of other ppl who speaks without filters in their mouth..

we're taking a chill pill, hope you guys do too.. ada nnti, ada la ok.. i will announce insyaAllah.. and insyaAllah if diperkenankan Allah, ada la ajoy or aina junior hihihihi.. for now, honeymoon & dating mode la lagiiiii hihihihihi.. *peace* *wink2*

::noisy tak hengat::

2011-03-27T16:37:00.000+08:00

ever since ajoy and i moved in, our neighbour right above us have been drilling, knocking, hammering and such.. mula2 move in tak kisah la, biasa la house renovation kan.. but how would you feel if for 1 year and 4 months, the drilling does not stop??? weekends drilling.. weekdays pun drilling.. sometimes, they even drill and hammer on the walls and floors in the middle of the night! rasa mcm nak pegi naik atas and knock on their door and tell them to stop it!

ok ok.. weekend kena tahan sikit la kan.. if not bila lagi they can do the drilling and knocking kan.. fine, but in the middle of the night on weekdays?? tats is super uncalled for!

ntah bila la org atas ni nak be satisfied with their house and just stop all these noises for a change.. pening dah kepala ni.. dah la kena rest.. but how on earth am i suppose to rest with all the knocking n drilling upstairs.. sighhhhh.. tu la hidup berjiran kan.. mcm2 kena endure..

::idung berdarah::

2011-03-27T13:04:00.001+08:00

when i was little, especially in primary school, i have had nosebleed repeatedly.. especially during perhimpunan.. when i finished school, i did encounter this problem once in awhile.. usually because of the hot weather..

4 days ago, while i was at the office, my nose bled again. it struck as a weird occurrence for me as i was in air conditioned room kan.. then the next day, on friday it happened again. yesterday, another incident in the afternoon, and another short one at night.. and today i woke up and sneezed, and u guess it right, again another incident.. nasib baik tak kena bedsheet or my clothes.. of course all these incidents did not last more than 10 mins.. but, i have never had a recurring nose bleed day after day for a very long time..

i know how to stop the bleeding when it occurs, but what i wanna know is, how do i prevent the bleeding from happening? i read this medical article on nosebleed: http://www.medicinenet.com/nosebleed/article.htm and http://www.life123.com/health/first-aid/nosebleeds/unexplained-nosebleeds.shtml and a few more but i still havent found any prevention tips..

as adviced by my aunty, i will go to the clinic today to get my nose checked.. tp kena tggu ajoy balik keje dulu.. coz she said her nephew dulu igtkan panas dlm rupanya ada bleeding dlm brain.. harap2 tak la kan, coz my bleeding sekejap je..

in the articles i read tu, some ppl bleeding smpi 1 - 2 hours.. lagi horror.. nauzubillah, jauh2kan la kan..

::sugarland::

2011-03-26T00:42:00.000+08:00

saw them on idol.. youtubed them.. and got stuck like glue on them.. hehehe.. enjoy.. hope u like them as much as i do.. ^_^

stuck like glue

a very cute video.. ske sgt!!

stay

listen to the lyrics. concentrate on the video. and tell me if you feel what she put across the song.. very moving. real. honest. open. superb.

to my readers (kalau ada ar hehehe), i wont be able to update tat much smpi la mid april since m super bz preparing for MIHAS & WHR on early april.. sape pegi look me up keh.. ^_^

::apam balik::

2011-03-19T23:03:00.000+08:00

today ajoy and i went to yaya and achik's engagement ceremony at bangi.. so i was communicating with jina about the ceremony.. baju yaya yang cantik.. decor yg cantik.. food sedap.. etc.. and then masa citer kat jina ada ABC, ada putu piring, and ada kuehhhh..... tiba2 otak jam.. blank.. apa pulak la nama kueh ni.. kueh lipat ke.. kuehhh.. ermmm... seriously blank giler otak time tu..

this was our conversation (btwn jina & me):

me: ada ABC gak.. putu piring.. and.. i da lupa nama kueh lipat tu.. yg selalu ada kat pasar malam tu.. letak kacang and jagung tu..

jina: huh? dunno..

aina: ermmm.. dia cam ada yg nipis ada yg tebal.. masak dlm hot plate pastu lipat dua..

jina: *silent*

aina: hahahah caner boleh lupa nama dia ni!!! LOL!

then i asked ajoy nama kueh tu.. and ajoy said apam balik sambil tergelak2 kat i.. *malu*

so i told jina nama kueh tu la kan..

me: apam balik!!!!

jina: apam balik????? hahahahahahahaha!! hahahahahahahahahahahaah!!

me: hahahahahahahah!! blonde moment jap hahahahahahaha!!! *malu giler*

terasa diriku begitu dumb blonde kadang2!! hahahahahaha.. korang pernah tak experience canie.. :P

::jam jam jam..strawberry jam? oh tidakkk::

2011-03-17T10:00:00.000+08:00

m talking bout traffic jam yg makin la berleluasanya di malaysia ni.. pelik.. ajoy and i have been trying to get out early everyday, and somehow or rather, sometimes we ended up being stuck even in a worse traffic jam drpd kalau yg keluar pukul 8am punya..

i start work at 9am.. so sgt tak logic la kalau nk gerak lepas subuh kan?? bukannya keje kat seremban.. damansara je kut.. on non peak hours, from s.alam to one utama tu can take only about 10mins - 20mins la tops.. but morning kan, haiyoooooo..

hari tu we left s.alam b4 7am tau.. haaa amik kau, 2 hours b4 time masuk keje da kuar rumah tu! hahahahaah.. of course la smpi damansara awal giler la.. yg jam nya is the jam after tol batu tiga tu.. kat situ la yg adoiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.. lotih!! once we've entered the exit nk ke sbg airport to go to nkve tue mmg heaven la..

eh da merepek meraban da ni.. actually nk citer bout malaysian drivers' attitude dlm jam2 ni.. kalau on the road yg bwk cam org bodo tu tak yah citer la kan.. kdg2 m sure we're also one of them jugak.. at least skali skala kan.. hahaha.. tp yg buat bengkekkkkkk tu kan, are those ppl yg dlm jam2 tu, takut bebenor nk menyelit!! it is super annoying la! da la we could see 2 kancil muat kut dpn dia, or mmg nmpk sgt dia bole masuk celah2 tu, bole lg nk takut2.. kdg2 yg geramnya, keta viva/kelisa or yg compact2 cam my car yg sememangnya la bole selit, tak nak jugak dia masuk.. takut sgt..

another scenario is biasa la kita takkan stay 1 lane je kan, esp if we need to turn into somewhere, or where we're going to kena amik jln tu kan.. so it is normal if we have to change lane kan.. TAPI.. ada pulak la hamba Allah yg nak masuk lane terkedek2, terhegeh2, takut yg amat! bukannya kena zupppp terus masuk bang oi.. masuk la ckit2 dulu.. pastu bole straighten yr car into the lane.. adoi.. amik lesen kopi agaknya eh..

org2 canie la yg buat jam lg teruk.. sbb dia nk masuk lane tu, signal dah, but tak masuk, siap brake lg tu.. so dpn dia da jauh da, pastu yg kat blkg dia stuck ler tak leh nk g mana2..

geram tul.. but then, mmg masalah org2 canie mmg cannot be solved la kut.. masalah traffic jam pun mmg susah sgt to solve.. imho la ya.. hehehe..

ok.. time to take a deep breath.. let go.. and start working..

happy working peeps!!

^_^

embrace this:

2011-03-16T23:12:00.000+08:00

::newborn princesses::

2011-03-16T22:36:00.000+08:00

two of my friends just gave birth to two beautiful princesses.. congrats irma and eleen.. irma's baby girl's name is zyva alayna, and eleen's baby girl's name is adreanna.. comel sgt dua2 baby!!

went to visit princess zyva with wida, nini and jina..

and went to visit princess adreanna with ajoy..

::somi da balik....::

2011-03-15T14:10:00.000+08:00

yeay... after 3 long days ajoy da balik from overseas.. takde la jauh pun.. dekat jer.. mmg tak lama.. tp sgt lama for me! sbb limited communications kan.. those who knows, knows la where kan.. sorry i wont disclose where my husband goes to, or when he left for safety purposes (skrg kan byk online stalkers :P)..

mode, sgt2 happy.. hehehe.. he bought me a blouse which is like 1-2 sizes too big for me.. tp bole pki kalau pregnant.. is it a sign, sayang? hehehehe.. aminnnn.. :P and he bought tshirt for himself.. tak byk pun shopping.. biasa la laki.. hehehe.. tu pun i was suprised he bought me something.. :P

apa pun, welcome home love..

p/s: to any haters, suka hati laki aku la dia nk beli apa2 brg tuk aku ke tuk dia ke.. bukan pakai duit kau pun.. ok?? shut yr yaps will ya..

::XL::

2011-03-08T21:21:00.000+08:00

hahahahaha.. sudah gomok.. :P

::rock that beat::

2011-03-08T09:46:00.000+08:00

to those who listens to hitz.fm especially in the morning wud be very familiar with this game:

it is a simple but very hard game.. haaa twisted gitu kan.. they wud play us a beat, and then we have to guess the song title n artist.. it is just a simple beat.. but.. there are over a million songs to choose from!!! so to play this game of course we have to be the 1st three callers, tat is a challenge on its own bcoz almost always cannot get thru one.. line is always bz.. and i have tried calling in since november 2010.. yepppp.. lama tu.. at that time, the prize money was only at RM4500 camtu.. the prize money snowballs ya.. but, if we guess a song that is already on the website, they will deduct rm100 for every guess..

so now, the prize is a whopping RM8700!!!! and that is inclusive of all the rm100s yg da tolak2, imagine if nothing was deducted, ntah2 da rm10k kut.. possible tak.. ;)

i got thru 3 times already, but of course salah teka la ahahahaha.. my 1st call went thru on 27th december.. and then i tried calling almost everyday.. i think dlm sepanjang2 game ni maybe not more than 10 times la tak call in, tu pun sbb ada hal, tak dgr radio hehehe..

i called in yesterday.. tp salah.. dah la salah, the answer i guessed was on the website pulak tu.. hahahahaha.. and jj asked me whether i checked the website.. i did, tp last wednesday la.. sbb thur n fri mc, tak g keje so tak dgr radio hehehehe.. rupanyer on thurs ada org teka sama lagu dgn i.. so salah la.. and on the website summore.. so bcoz of me kena deduct rm100.. hehehehe.. sorry peeps.. :P

i wont give up though.. nk jugak try lagi.. mana la tau it is my rezeki kan.. hehehe.. wish me luck!! ;)

::growing old..er::

2011-03-01T11:43:00.000+08:00

for those who still has no idea of how old i am, since some still thinks m in my 20s (tq for thinking so!!), m actually 32 this year.. yepppp.. da 2 thn masuk 3 series group hihihi..

of course, aging has left its footprints on me.. my skin, my body, my metabolism (hence my yoyo body), and my complexion as well.. tgk gmbr ni, gosh i look so kusam! :P

one of my concerns as stated above is the eyebags which doesnt seem to wanna go away, and wrinkles who is leaving their marks on my face day by day, lil by lil.. and today, is the my 1st time, buying anti-wrinkle products aka products for aging ppl like me lar hahaha.. smpi tak tau nk beli brand apa coz there are soooo many products out there! i ended up buying this:

niat dihati nak beli olay tu tp mahal bebenor hehehe.. i hope this can somewhat help to diminish the fine wrinkles on my face!! hihihi..

on the same note, my mother adviced me to take this vitamin that has all the vitamins, u name it, this product has it.. including folic acid.. as we age, we need more and more vitamins for our body, especially since the food we eat loses most of the natural vitamins in them anyways.. as for folic acid, it is essential as i am trying to get pregnant now.. i referred to a pharmacist on duty just now, and she said the quantity of folic acid in this vitamin is insufficient for my purpose, so i needed to take extra.. so bought some.. murah jer, 1 papan 60sen jer.. hehehe.. it is a small investment to achieve wat ajoy n i want.. as for the vitamin agak mahal jugak, but a small investment for good health kan..

hope all goes well with everything m taking now hehe.. wish us luck! *wink*

~ terima dia seadanya..

2011-02-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

Seorang wanita dan kekasihnya bernikah dan acara pernikahannya sungguh meriah….semua kawan dan keluarga mereka hadir menyaksikan dan menikmati hari yg berbahagia tersebut. Suatu acara yg luar biasa dan sungguh meriah. Mempelai wanita begitu cantik dan anggun dalam gaun putihnya dan pengantin lelaki dngan tuxedo hitam yang gagah. Setiap pasang mata yg memandang setuju mengatakan bahawa mereka sungguh2 sepadan.

Beberapa bulan kemudian, si suami berkata kpd isterinya:

“syg, abg baru membaca sebuah artikel dalam majalah tntang bagaimana memperkuatkan hubungan dan tali pernikahan kita”, katanya sambil menunjukkan majalah tersebut”…

“masing2 kita akan mencatatkan hal2 yg kurang kita sukai dr psangan kita. Kemudian, kita akn mmbahas bgaimn kita mgubah hal2 trsebut dan membuatkan perkahwinan kita bersama lebih bahagia…”

Isterinya setuju dan mrk mula memikirkan hal2 dr psangannya yg tidak mrk sukai dan berjanji tidak akn tersinggung ketika psangannya yg mencatat hal2 yg kurang baik krn ia adlah untuk kebaikan mrk bersama. Malam itu mrk sepakat utk berpisah tidur dan mencatat apa yg terlintas dlm benak mrk masing2. Esok pg ketika sarapan, mrk sedia membincangkannya.” Abg akan mulai dulu ya”, kata suami. Ia lalu mengeluarkan senarainya. Bnyk sekali yg ditulisnya, sekitar 2 muka surat…..ketika ia mulai membacakan satu persatu hal yg tidak dia sukai mengenai diri isterinya, ia memperhatikan isterinya tertunduk dan sedikit air mata bergenang di sisi matanya…mgkin ada sedikit kesedaran pd perwatakannya sebelum ini tanpa disedari….

“ maaf sayang, apakah abg harus berhenti?” tanyanya. “Oh tidak, teruskan…” jawab isterinya. Lalu si suami melanjutkan membacakan senarai.

Giliran sayang…abang sedia mendengarnya”..dgn suara perlahan dan tersekat-sekat isterinya berkata, “Maafkan sayang…sayang tidak mencatat sesuatu pun di atas kertas sayang.syg fikir bahawa abg sudah sempurna di sisi syg. Dan syg tidak ingin mngubah akn diri abg. Abg adlah diri abg sendiri. Abg hensem dan baik hati di sisi syg. Tidak ada satupun drpd peribadi abg yg syg dapati kekurangannya. Syg cintakan suami syg yg dulu, sekarang dan selamanya selagi hayat syg. Si suami tersentak dan tersentuh hatinya oleh pernyataan dan ungkapan cinta serta isi hati isterinya…bahawa siisteri menerima dirinya seadanya.

Dia kemudian tertunduk dan mengalir air mata.

Sebelum kita mencari kekurngan org lain, carilah kekurangan diri sendiri. Adakah kita cukup SEMPURNA untuk dibandingkan dgn org lain????kalau jawapannya YA, maka kita berbohong atau kita PERASAN. Krn tiada manusia yg SEMPURNA dlm dunia ini dan sentiasa ada yg perlu diperbaiki..

Hakikatnya org2 yg menyayangi diri kita krn klebihan kita dan menerima sgala kelemahan kita, sudah pastinya org ini adlah sgt ikhlas menyayangi kita…

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kdp sygku ajoy azrul..

like i always tell you, we shouldnt change ourselves drastically bcoz i love u for who u are, i love u for yr character, and if u change 360 degrees, chances are, i might miss the old you.. hope you feel the same for me as well.. ^_^

love u..

~ sayangilah suami anda..

2011-02-24T20:08:00.000+08:00

~ suatu perjalanan

tanggungjawab suami selain memberi nafkah dan mencari rezeki, jangan lupa bimbing anak dan isteri. kalau suatu hari berlaku selisih faham, jangan cepat menuding jari. duduk berbincang dan cari kata sepakat. tiada bumi tidak ditimpa hujan.

~ teringat satu pesan di suatu petang

"pak mat dulu bila arwah isteri pak mat mula bising bersuara, pak mat tak balas dengan kata-kata. pak mat keluar hidupkan motor, pergi ke pekan cari mee goreng mamak. bila sampai saja di rumah, pak mat hulur pada arwah isteri pak mat. muka yang tadi masam terus tersenyum riang. suami kena tahu kesukaan isteri, supaya mudah memujuk hati." pak mat menambah, berkongsi pengalaman selama 41 tahun bersama arwah isterinya.persefahaman antara suami dan isteri bukan boleh dicapai sehari dua. ia merupakan satu perjalanan sepanjang usia perkahwinan. cabaran dan dugaan pastinya tidak sama di awal, pertengahan dan di hujungnya. justeru, sikap saling memberi dan menerima sangat perlu dipupuk dan dibaja. memberi kelebihan diri untuk saling melengkapi. menerima kekurangan untuk saling menginsafi. suami mahupun isteri bukanlah manusia sempurna.

~ silap isteri

kesilapan isteri bermula apabila melupakan kebaikan suami kerana benci dengan sikapnya yang tidak menyenangkan hati. silap menjadi dosa andai keistimewaan suami orang yang sering dibicara. keburukan suami dijaja, atas alasan minta nasihat rumahtangga. tapi apa maknanya kalau semua orang bercerita. Rasulullah SAW pernah mengingatkan melalui sabdanya yang bermaksud ;"wahai kaum wanita, aku lihat kamu lebih ramai di neraka"....seorang wanita lalu bangun bertanya, "apakah yang menyebabkan yang sedemikian? adakah sebab kami ini kufur?" Rasulullah SAW menjawab, "tidak. bukan begitu. tetapi ada dua tabiat kamu yang tidak elok yang boleh menjerumuskan kamu ke dalam neraka,

1. kamu banyak mengutuk atau menyumpah

2. kamu kufurkan kebaikan suami

"ada kalanya, isteri merajuk tanpa sepatah kata. suami yang tidak tahu menahu, terus buat biasa. muka isteri semakin kelat, hilang serinya. menahan ego diri, ingin dipujuk dengan kata cinta. namun tidak berbicara dan bersemuka. suami tertanya-tanya sendiri, akhirnya terasa hati. salah siapa agaknya, bila masing-masing memendam rasa. kasih mula bertukar marah. marah nampaknya menyala benci.

~ yang lebih, yang kurang"awak beruntung ye, dapat suami yang memahami. tak seperti saya. hari-hari menjeruk rasa." luah seorang teman yang baru beroleh cahaya mata. "suami saya juga ada kurangnya. tapi kelebihannya banyak untuk saya perkatakan. saya pun isteri yang ada salah dan silap." jawap Anis supaya dia buka mata.

"ada suami yang tak pandai urusan rumah tangga, namun dia bijak berjenaka. meriah suasana. ada suami yang jarang menghadiahkan bunga, tapi selalu membelanja anak dan isteri dengan makanan istimewa. dan ramai juga suami yang tidak reti memujuk, bermain kata, tapi mudah bertoleransi bila diminta bantu sini dan sana. ketepikan kekurangannya dan ambil kelebihan. pasti awak juga akan rasa bertuah beroleh suami seperti dia." pujuk Anis lagi. moga-moga dia berubah hati. kembali memandang tinggi kehadiran seorang suami.

~ engkau terbaik untukku

"sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit, apa pula suami isteri, buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih, baru teguh peribadi."wahai teman yang bergelar isteri, sama-samalah muhasabah diri. pohon keampunan dari Ilahi agar cinta Nya kembali bersemi. banyakkan istighfar dan juga sedekah, kerana janji Allah setiap kebaikan menghapus kejahatan. susunkan jemari pintalah kemaafan dari lelaki bernama suami. jangan bertangguh dan jangan lengah. bimbang maaf tiada serinya lagi. pandang wajahnya, lihat matanya, bisikkan di sanubari "terima kasih suamiku, engkau terbaik untuk diri ini."

mencari dan terus mencari cinta Ilahi.

saling berpesan-pesan kepada kebaikan

"the only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing"

~ bila isteri terluka..

2011-02-24T20:02:00.001+08:00

today tak tau knp byk pulak posts about husband n wife relationship.. good ones.. and i feel it is important that we share them.. this is also to remind ourselves krn manusia mudah lupa kan.. i'll be posting 2 more entries such as this.. happy reading ^_^

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bila isteri terluka..

untuk berkongsi dgn pembaca (kalau ada yg baca lah).. untuk panduan para suami.. jua pesanan sy pd diri sendiri.. jgn relakan hati merana dgn berpura2 gembira. kena luahkan dan tunjuklah jika tidak suka.

suami bukanlah raja yg akan pancung kepala org sesuka hatinya. suami ialah sebhgn hati kita, yg jika jiwa isterinya terbakar separuh, maka jiwanya turut rentung bersama..
luahkan rasa tak puas hati semasa kejadian masih baru berlalu. krn suami cepat terlupa, bhw dia telah melukakan hati kita..
jika kita pendam saja, lihatlah nnti, kita ungkit semua smpi suami pecah kepala, fikir semua salah dia. sedangkan kita selalu bermanja seolah2 tiada apa2
pernyataan supaya isteri yg wajib menanggung segala rasa dan menahan keinginan, adalah sesuatu yg perlu diulas. dibuka terang lebar:

isteri yg bersuara kuat dan gelak mengatakan dia "tak apa2", sedang berjuang untuk memastikan hatinya tidak terluka. peganglah tangannya..
isteri yg tajam pandangannya ialah yg terluka hatinya, yg x mahu dipujuk, cuma hanya mahu gembira semula. jgn byk ckp.. kang kena 'fire'..
isteri yg marah dan bengkeng ialah yg keliru antara ingin sedih atau kecewa.. yg perlu tempat mengamuk segala. berilah peluang dia seimbangkan hormonnya.. dia lebih tau di mana salahnya.
isteri yg redup matanya bila melihat suaminya, sambil tersenyum ialah isteri yg sedih hatinya, yg ingin dipujuk sblm mengalir airmata. pujuk la cepat..
isteri yg menangis ialah yg ingin meluah rasa, yg ingin diberi ruang sendirian melepaskan semua sendu di dada. biarkan dia nangis sepuas2nya.

semuanya kerana seorang yg bergelar suami..

- kerana hanya dgn suami kita berkongsi kepala di bantal yg sama

- tempat berehat di dada yg halal

- tempat kita tenang di tgn yg halal

- berkongsi tubuh dan ruang bilik

- dgn org yg kita sendiri yg redha utk hidup semati di hari kita diakadkan

jadi redha, berterus terang lah, dan selalu lah memaafkan.. hati lega, jiwa gembira dan tiada salah sangka..

::esperanza spalding::

2011-02-19T13:49:00.002+08:00

for those who watched grammy awards 2011 wud know some of the debates going on about the winner of the best new artiste going to esperanza spalding instead of justin bieber, the public's favourite.. i too was one of those who went 'wha? who? who's tat???'.. my fave radio show also had a topic about this lately and debated that justin bieber shud win instead of ms esperanza.. but, while the discussion/topic was going on, i was actually thinking, who is she.. she must hve been great for her to win kut.. gotta google her soon..

i did, today.. and was blown away by her.. her voice.. her music.. i love to layan jazz songs from time to time.. i think u guys wud know seeing the songs that i've shared here kan.. and when i youtubed esperanza spalding, i fell in love.. and now i know why she won.. so to the super talented esperanza spalding, congratulations to you!! i personally think u deserve it too.. those who opposed yr winning, well, they just dont appreciate music like yours.. different cup of tea, different taste hence difference of opinions kan.. tats life.. c'est la vie.. ^_^

so.. wanna get to know her? well here she is.. this song is called precious.. enjoy.. ^_~

esperanza spalding - precious
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Love me or leave me
But please
Don't deceive me
And say you
Love me how I am
You love the way
I fit some ideal
Not the real woman
You've yet to understand
See love ain't all heaven
And I am no angel
But I do the best I can

You always wanted
Something more from my body
And said you needed
Something more from my loving
But all you got was me
And that's all that I can be
I'm sorry if it let you down

Now it's no nice excuse
But all the magic was used
Up on trying to uphold
Some kind of tame
Flattering persona
That soon enough
Was getting real old
It takes more than pressure
To change rock to diamond
Now all you have is sand
Slipping through your fingers

You always wanted
Something more from my body
And said you needed
Something more from my loving
But all you got was me
And that's all that I can be
I'm sorry if it let you down

But I'm not gonna sit around
And waste
My precious divine energy
Trying to explain
And being ashamed of things
You think are wrong with me
I'm not gonna sit around
And waste
My precious divine energy
Trying to explain
And being ashamed
Of what you think
Is wrong with me

Set you up
You say I set you up
Like I was different
Than what I am
Offering you now
And drug your heart around
Did you forget about
All of the love
And the acceptance
That you promised me too?

You always wanted
Something more from my body
And said you needed
Something more from my loving
But all you got was me
And that's all that I can be
I'm sorry if it let you down
You always wanted
Something more from my body
And said you needed
Something more from my loving
But all you got was me
And that's all that I can be
I'm sorry if it let you down
But I'm not gonna sit around

And waste
My precious divine energy
Trying to explain
And being ashamed of things
You think are wrong with me
Me, I'm not gonna sit around
And waste
My precious divine energy
Trying to explain
And being ashamed
Of what you think is wrong
With melt let you down
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::reading pleasure??

2011-02-17T14:05:00.001+08:00

lately, my reading habits hv diverted to something important that i shud have indulged myself into ever since i got married.. takpe la, better late than never kan.. wat have i been reading about?

thissssss...

::gourmet burger journey::

2011-02-14T23:42:00.001+08:00

my hubby, ajoy is a burger lover.. literally.. pegi la restaurant mana2 that has burger on the menu, wpun ada benda lain like pasta, steak, fish, chicken ke apa ke, burgerrrrr jugak yg dia pilih.. hihihih.. unless he already knows tat place nyer burger tak sedap.. like delicious.. their burger not delicious one.. very the dry.. some may like their burgers like tat, but not us.. we like ours juuuuu-seeee (juicy)!!!! but wat about those burgers they sell at giant semua? mmg la ajoy tak mkn.. i bole je telan hehehe..

because of this, i am determined to learn making great burgers for ajoy.. i tried before, he loved it, tried again, he loves it still (smpi jilat2 jari).. but i know i can do much better than tis.. tis is wat i did today:

what we have here is my homemade burger patty (click here for recipe) to which this time i added some paprika and rosemary, baby lettuce, melted cheese on top of the burger and topped with sauteed onion and mushroom with parsley and drizzled with chilli sauce..

my dream.. is to create my own sauce.. find a better burger bun tat can take the weight.. this buns i bought mmg lembut giler2, sedap sgt roti dia.. but, after putting everything, the bun soon becomes flat.. not how i want it to look like la.. :P also, i'd love to add some crunchy beef bacon to have tat lovable crunch in every bite.. mcm whopper burger king.. but of course it'll be better with my own patty la kan.. chewahh.. :P

ok, inspirations? loadsssss!!! i also found this site that has 21 top rated burger recipe! will come back here to improvise my burger recipes soon.. ^_^

::kelakar kadang2::

2011-02-13T00:34:00.003+08:00

ajoy and i have been living at our apartment sejak kitaorg nikah lagi.. at this apartments, mostly are couples like us, or small family with 1-2 children but byk jugak rumah sewa.. one day, we saw someone wrote on our common white board about them knowing ada org bawak boyfriends/girlfriends masuk umah, masuk lif asing2 etc.. so sejak tat 'message' kan, i noticed some neighbors pandang2 lain macammmmm je kat kitaorg.. hihihihi.. especially when they're in the same elevator as us.. they had this look of 'diaorg ni da kawin ke belum.. selamba je naik sama2" hahahahahaha.. well this is partly our fault sbb, we hardly join any of our apartment's meeting or apa2, tp weddings ada la join.. timing selalu salah pun hehehe (sometimes sekdr alasan la hihihi).. so there are soooo many neighbors yg we've never seen, and m sure they dont know us either, hence the look they've been giving us.. hihihi kelakar la kadang2.. sometimes org2 surau yg pandang kitaorg semcm tu rasa cam nk je ckp 'kitaorg da kawin la pakcik.. nk tgk kad nikah??" hihihihi.. :P

on a bright side, i guess we dont look tat married huh.. nmpk muda la konon kut wakakakakakakakakakakakaka!!!! ye la, it is not like we changed our style of dressing pun sejak kawin.. hihihi.. so still nmpk cam dulu gak sblm kawin kut.. :P

::kantoi::

2011-02-12T13:34:00.002+08:00

this was from my mummy's email too.. funny hihihihi..

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Why husband should not answer.....

WIFE: 'What would you do if I died? Would you get married again?

HUSBAND: 'Definitely not!

WIFE: 'Why not? Don't you like being married?'

HUSBAND: 'Of course I do.
WIFE: 'Then why wouldn't you remarry?
HUSBAND: 'Okay, okay, I'd get married again.'

WIFE: 'You would?'

HUSBAND: .......?

WIFE: 'Would you live in our house?'

HUSBAND: 'Sure, it's a great house.'

WIFE: 'Would you let her drive my car?'

HUSBAND: 'Probably, it is almost new.'

WIFE: 'Would you replace my pictures with hers?'

HUSBAND: 'That would seem like the proper thing to do..'

WIFE: 'Would you give her my jewelry?'

HUSBAND: 'No, I'm sure she'd want her own.'

WIFE: 'Would she wear my shoes'

HUSBAND: 'No, her size is 6.'

WIFE: -- silence .......

HUSBAND: 'oh shit'.

::very inspirational::

2011-02-12T13:31:00.003+08:00

got this from my mum.. best sgt2.. hope tis will inspire you too.. ;)

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*source: mr gugel

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind.

She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, If I could only see the world, I would marry you.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.

He asked her, Now that you can ! see the world, will you marry me?

The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.

This is how the human brain often works when our status changes.

Only a very few remember what life was like before, and only a very few remember who was always by their side in the most painful situations.

Life Is a Gift

Today before you say an unkind word,

Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food,

Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife,

Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

Today before you complain about life,

Think of someone who went to heaven too young.

Before you complain about your children,

Think of someone who desires children but are barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house,

Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive,

Think of someone who walks the same distance.

And when you are tired and start to complain about your job, Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.

And before you think of judging another, Remember that not one of us is without sin and we all will have to answer to one GOD.

So when depressing thoughts seem to get you down, Put a smile on your face and thank GOD for all he has given you.

God's love is unconditional!

::14 ways to save $$$ on groceries::

2011-02-09T12:26:00.001+08:00

my MIL emailed these very useful tips.. balik ni nak terus buat.. tq mama! ^_^

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1. Line the bottom of your refrigerator’s crisper drawer with paper towels. They’ll absorb the excess moisture that causes vegetables to rot.

2. To keep herbs tasting fresh for up to a month, store whole bunches, washed and sealed in plastic bags, in the freezer. When you need them, they’ll be easier to chop, and they’ll defrost the minute they hit a hot pan.

3. A bay leaf slipped into a container of flour, pasta, or rice will help repel bugs.

4. Stop cheese from drying out by spreading butter or margarine on the cut sides to seal in moisture. This is most effective with hard cheeses sealed in wax.

5. When radishes, celery, or carrots have lost their crunch, simply pop them in a bowl of iced water along with a slice of raw potato and watch the limp vegetables freshen up right before your eyes.

6. Avoid separating bananas until you plan to eat them – they spoil less quickly in a bunch.

7. Put rice in your saltshaker to stop the salt from hardening. The rice absorbs condensation that can cause clumps.

8. Stock up on butter when it’s on sale – you can store it in the freezer for up to six months. Pack the butter in an airtight container, so it doesn’t take on the flavor of whatever else you’re freezing.

9. In order to make cottage cheese or sour cream last longer, place the container upside down in the fridge. Inverting the tub creates a vacuum that inhibits the growth of bacteria that causes food to spoil.

10. Believe it or not, honey is the only nonperishable food substance, so don’t get rid of the stuff if it crystallizes or becomes cloudy. Microwave on medium heat, in 30-second increments, to make honey clear again.

11. Prevent extra cooked pasta from hardening by stashing it in a sealed plastic bag and refrigerating. When you’re ready to serve, throw the pasta in boiling water for a few seconds to heat and restore moisture.

12. Keeping brown sugar in the freezer will stop it from hardening. But if you already have hardened sugar on your shelf, soften it by sealing in a bag with a slice of bread – or by microwaving on high for 30 seconds.

13. If you only need a few drops of lemon juice, avoid cutting the lemon in half – it will dry out quickly. Instead, puncture the fruit with a metal skewer and squeeze out exactly what you require.

14. If you’re unsure of an egg’s freshness, see how it behaves in a cup of water: Fresh eggs sink; bad ones float.

::sabar itu separuh drpd iman::

2011-02-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

this entry will be a lil emo-ish.. it is pertaining to questions being bombarded to couples like me yg still belum dpt baby even tho da kawin setahun lebih.. some of my friends da kawin 4-8 years pun lum dpt baby.. some baru dpt baby after almost 2 years waiting.. it is just life.. babies dont just grow in yr tummy bila kita petik jari.. if having babies is as easy as planting plants in our garden, then there wont be couples yg tpaksa adopt children, yg havent been lucky even dah 10 thn kawin..

fyi peeps, having a baby is something both ajoy and i really2 want but it is just not happening for us yet.. ajoy wanted baby kalau bole since kawin lg.. have u ever watched giuliana & bill show? she said something brilliant the other day.. of all the things we can control in our lives, THIS (having a baby) is something we just cant control.. it will happen when it is the right time..

wat's sad to me is those who asks me are ALL muslims. wats dat gotta do with anything? it has everything to do with everything. take a moment to ponder wat i just said. we're muslims, we all know about qada' and qadar.. if Allah wills it for us, if Allah decides it is our time, then it is our time.. if it is not, it is not..

i am not like other ladies who thinks of having babies all the time.. like literally, all the time.. there are times when we just have fun n not think bout them.. we only think bout them when ppl asks us about it..

to me and my friends, it is utterly insensitive to ask about babies/pregnancy to married couples, especially especially and especially to couples who are already married for more than 6 mths and still not pregnant yet.. faux pas to the max.. to those yg belum kawin i can still understand if they ask me.. tp kalau byk kali mau aku lempang jugak la kan.. tp to those yg dah kawin n had it easy for example within 3 mths da pregnant, then u have NO idea how any of us feels and felt to be trying and trying but still no good news..

so to ask us questions tat we have no idea wat to answer because we cant control the outcome, we can control the mechanism of being pregnant, is just uncalled for.. m so sorry if i seem very emo today, maybe m just so tired of answering those questions.. and to think those questions came from muslims LAAGGGGIIII la rasa cam sedih sgt..

so let me say this again ~ ajoy and i wants to be pregnant as much as u want us to be. we too want badly to see how our babies wud look like as much as u do.. tat being said, i know how much our family members wants us to be pregnant too, more than any of u nosy ppl.. but unfortunately it is not happening for us yet.. to us, maybe ada hikmah disebalik semua ni.. maybe we need more time for each other, maybe Allah wants us to date lagi byk hehehe, maybe Allah has something else planned for us. i mean masyaAllah nobody knows la.. so just let us be okay.. pls.. *peace y'all*

on a happy note, i am so happy tat this month alone, i found out that 5 friends of mine are now 4-7 weeks pregnant!! so so happy for them! congrats hot mamas!!

::spa spa spa::

2011-02-06T23:46:00.000+08:00

tak sabarnya nk pegi spa to pamper myself.. hehehe.. tis is the spa i'll be going to nnti.. well, it is more of a revisit for me hehe.. cantik tak??? cantik kan??? hehehe.. harus la tak sabar!!

nama spa: estebel spa

venue: menara hla, kl

url: estebel spa, malaysia

this is their locker area.. each locker has bathrobe, towel, etc.. besar locker dia! so this will be our first stop after the 1st step (register, skin analysis, etc)

we can use any one or all of these free services they offer - mini gym, aromatic steam bath, jacuzzi.. kalau ada masa bole buat semua2.. i'd recommend the jacuzzi.. layan gilerrrrr...

this is their tea room.. very european gitu kan.. sbb estebel is from france, sbb tu ler hehe.. so this is where they wud serve us tea and biscuit (oh so classy hehe) before, after or in between our treatment(s).. tea tu bole pilih u nk tea flavour apa pun.. ;)

ni pulak is one of their 8 private treatment room.. yes sorang 1 bilik.. very the private.. i loike!

haihhhh tak sabar!!

lps abis semua treatment, da mandi2, nk get ready kan, this is their uber comfortable dressing room.. tgk kat sblh kiri tu, tats tempat tukar baju.. and then on the right is where we pretty ourselves up.. tak yah bwk mosturizer bagai pun takpe.. on the table itself da ada hairdryer, mosturizers, body cream, etc.. rasa cam tak nak kuar dr spa ni tau nnti.. hehehe.. :P